Not Going

Dear Diary,

Not sure when I actually went to bed this morning. Had a hard time falling asleep and keeping one ear alert to any calls from R.   He didn’t call – but heard a noise so I got up to check. He was taking a shower.  Bed clothes felt damp when I checked. Changed the top sheet and one of the pillowcases. Straightened out the covers. Got fresh t-shirt out for him.  Waited. Finally he got out.  Took temp. Was 101 degrees. At 10:30 it was 103 degrees.  I’m sure it broke earlier  so to explain the “sweaty” sheet. But it was going up again.  A tylenol and some gatorade. A bottle of water by his bedside and a new ice pack.  Back to bed. The phone rang at 4:30.  My wake-up call from my sister.  I told her I couldn’t go.  Explained that R. was sick. Apologized for not being able to go and help her with the driving. Said I would miss the day with her.  We have fun with each other.  She’ll have Auntie R. to be with.  T. is going so he will help with the driving.   I am sorry to miss the outing.

I want to stay home to care for R.  I need to get him in to the doctor.  There’s no other  decision to make.  I’m …

…not going.

~Susie