I Am Glad

Dear Diary.

Hmmm…January, where did it go?  Caught this pesky sneezing, laryngitis, cold, sniffles, congestion, sore throat, etc. etc. around the 5th…and it’s still hanging around (but I thinking the antibiotics are kicking in…should have gone to the clinic earlier…)

Got blind sighted when my aunt went in the hospital and 2 days later died…Burkett’s leukemia the doctor said…very aggressive, within 7-10 days and no notice that you’ve got it…unfortunately, her last hours were not easy for her or her 3 daughters or her sisters (my mom included).  Merely days later my cousin’s husband is in the hospital (this is one of the daughters mentioned) with bronchitis, a reaction to some meds, a sore that doesn’t heal resulting in a toe being removed, then full blown pneumonia, followed by a staph infection, strep infection and gangrene in the foot and it had to be removed…but not before he had a few rounds of dialysis and had to be ventilated. Amazingly, he’s now on 17th floor at St. Luke’s for rehab. Their son and daughter-in-law just had their first baby – a boy- and thankfully he appears to be fine. During this same time, my cousin (another one of the 3 daughters) had a scare with her son who had to have something on his leg biopsy at MD Anderson…things appear to be okay with him.

My days were crazy at the church job with having to keeps things on an even keel when it seemed that a small group was out to wreak havoc and create dissention…why is it that taking the higher road always seems harder even when you know it’s the only way to be or to go???

With the oldest son in Thailand and India and hearing from him only twice in the month, my homesickness seems overwhelming at times. The younger son is dealing with his own issues and my concern for him is high – especially in January – the anniversary month that I can’t seem to forget; guess I never will, since it’s the month that he was injured so very badly. Yes, he’s physically healed. But I have to wonder if some of his issues are part of post traumatic stress syndrome???  Husband has been buried in at work and I’m amazed that he is still able to function with the hours he puts in – 24/7 seems too little yet I know he comes home because he has dirty clothes in the laundry.

I completely forgot about a very important event – not actually forgot – but got the dates mixed up – me who lives by my Franklin Planner – what’s up with that?? My mistake caused me to miss out on something I think is important in my life. I can get the information but I can’t make up the time missed with women I care about. I lost the money paid in advanced and I really can’t afford that.

A few days subbing and being with kids in the 3rd and 4th grade…I continue to love this and am not too surprised.  Next week it’s 4 days with the same class and ones I’ve been with before.

January’s a blur…and for that…

…I am glad.

~Susie