[x] Summer 2008 // Today

July 2008… ugh horrible time.. // Now.
 
Who was the last person you threw out of your life?
Cat and Emma, at the same time. // ‘Threw out’ hmm, I’m not sure… maybe Mel. A girl I lived with for 6 weeks last year who turned out to be severely unhinged.
 
Are you wearing socks?
No.
 
Do you regret something you did yesterday?
Yes. Me and Dan had a horrible argument… it was really, really bad… I said some bad things, he did as well, but I still regret it. // Ugh I feel awful remembering those times. Anyway – no I don’t.
 
When was the last time you cried?
Today. // About a month ago.
 
Why were you crying?
I was upset about what I just mentioned…and just our relationship in general. // I’m in a rambling mood, so… 2012 has been a stressful nightmare job wise. I found out on the 4th January that I was going to be made redundant (along with every other member of staff who worked there, 40+ people), which was so awful as I adored the job and the people, I had relocated for the job, and I’d only been there 5/6 months. Obviously that was stressful as hell, but I had a few months to find another job… and something came up very quickly that was just down the road from my house! It wasn’t an amazing job, but it was still good experience, I would have still continued to look for other things but at a more relaxed pace. To cut a long story short, I was pressured into starting there early (missing out on a couple of months high salary from my previous job and my holiday pay), and it was a total nightmare. I worked 4 shifts, and it was so alarming and disturbing, that I arranged an urgent meeting with the MD to discuss my concerns. The result of this meeting was that I was sacked, for ‘causing issues’ and apparantly ‘everyone hated’ me. So… I now found myself totally jobless, at a loss, still having to pay rent and bills of course. In the space of 6 days after that, I managed to report the company, start a legal case against them, attend 3 interviews and secure another job (which was a lot better), but which would also involve relocating. Sooo… all the stress of organising starting the job, relocating, etc… whilst not earning. I started the new job in May, all going well, I felt totally okay and unphased by everything that had happened this year, somehow. THEN I found out I would no longer be working in a prison (which is where I thought I’d be based, this was the plan) and there was a question mark over my job AGAIN… I found this out on a Friday, so I had a truly horrible weekend of feeling totally unlike myself, really upset and just about ready to give up. I think it was the combined stress of everything that took it’s toll. Thankfully since then, things have stabilised… I still have loads of exams and a court case coming up, but I’m determined no more shit can happen this year.
 
Whats the last thing you ate?
Chocolate éclairs! // Greek yoghurt.
 
What kind of bottoms are you wearing?
Pajama bottoms. // Dark blue jeans.
 
How many windows are open on your computer?
Three. // 2.
 
What do you hear right now?
Dan is playing guitar right infront of me. // TV, vaguely… and cars.
 
How many hours did you sleep last night?
About six or seven. // About 8.
 
Is something bothering you right now?
Yes. // Not actively..
 
Are you sarcastic?
I can be. // Yes.
 
Are you shy?
No.
 
Are you talkative?
Yes.
 
Last person you saw?
Dan. // Mandy?
 
Who’s the last person you talked on the phone with?
My mum. // Not sure.
 
The past week have you gotten sick?
Well I had excruciating stomach pains which kept me up all night, and also anxiety pains… apart from that no. // Thankfully not.
 
In the past week have you felt stupid?
Yeah sure. // Yes, I think that’s normal when an exam is coming up.
 
In the past week have you got your hair cut?
No.
 
In the past week have you watched cartoons?
Maybe. // No.
 
What were you doing at 9 AM this morning?
Talking to Dan, writing an email, feeling so sad. // Getting dressed.
 
In the past week have you felt sad?
Oh God yes. // No.
 
Has someone disappointed you recently?
Yeah sure. 
 
Do you have plans for this weekend?
Revision… I want to go somewhere pretty too. // It is the weekend and no. I have an exam so I need to try and prepare tomorrow, and also I’m trying to save money.
 
Do you feel comfortable with answering personal questions?
Yes.
 
Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
Yes, I have to absolutely believe that. // Yes. But in honesty, I don’t think a lot of them are. I think people are lonely.
 
Last thing you said aloud?
“Okay.” // No idea.
 
Would you be able to date someone who had a kid with someone else?
I don’t think so right now. // I wouldn’t be prepared to.
 
What do you want to name your kids?
I don’t know.
 
If you could pack up and move, would you?
Yes. // I’ve only just moved! It would depend.
 
What is one thing you have learned lately?
A lot…
 
What person in your family are you the most like?
I’m really not sure. // I don’t feel I’m especially like anyone in my family.
 
Do you hate when people smoke around you?
Pretty much.
 
Who did you sit with at lunch today?
I went out to lunch with Dan. // I didn’t have lunch. I didn’t eat anything until 7pm ughh.
 
Does the last person you held hands with mean anything to you?
Yes. 
 
What does the last text message in your Inbox say?
“And yes, I still mean what I text you :-)” // I can’t be bothered to check, it’s saying that a table has been booked, and what favour do I want.
 
How are you dealing with everything that happened to you earlier?
I am trying to be hopeful and positive. // Haha. I’m quite a resilient person.
 
Who have you texted in the last 24 hours?
<div>Dan, Christine and my mum. // Not that many people, surprisingly.
 
name something that made you smile today?
I got a phone call from one of the managers at the house I am going to be working at, and he was really nice and sweet and said I’d be an ‘asset’ and he looks forward to meeting me. I’m going there Monday 🙂 // I had amazing garlic bread… ha, I really haven’t done much.
 
How long has it been since you’ve talked to your best friend?
Way too long she’s been crap at keeping in touch lately. // Christine text me a couple of days ago. And Tara emailed me from Japan yesterday.
 
 
·         How long were you with your last boyfriend?
Seven months. // Two years and a few months.
 
What are your chances of getting with your crush?
I have a boyfriend. // No crush.
 
Do you like music?
Yes.
 
What would you choose over the other? Friends or a boyfriend?
Why would I ever have to choose?
 
How many webites do you visit daily?
Lots. // A handful.
 
What is something you’re currently nervous about?
Relationship worries, financial situation, etc. // Exam.
 
What is something you’re wondering about?
Lots of things. // I hope I pass the damn exam. I seriously don’t need anything else to go badly wrong.
 
When is the last time you saw your crush?
…
 
When is the next time you’ll see them?
…
 
How long have you liked your crush?
UGH.
 
Do you watch a lot of television?
No.
 
Do you watch a lot of movies?
No. // More so lately.
 
How much time per day do you have to relax and be alone?
I have time to relax but I am rarely alone. // A few hours, it’s important to me.
 
Do you prefer to be around people, or by yourself?
It depends who the people are.
 
What is the farthest you’ve traveled with a friend?
Tenerife. // Mauritius.
 
Would you rather go out to eat or stay home?
Generally go out.
 
Do you read books?
Yes.
 
Do you take a lot of pictures of yourself?
No.
 
So many that your parents and other adults make fun of you?
No.
 
Do you look at yourself in the mirror a lot?
Not really a lot.
 
Are you currently in a "I wouldn’t mind if I lost 50 pounds" kind of mood?
Sure. I was at the mall today and so many of the girls looked so much skinnier than me and it bothered me. Its worrying because I haven’t felt that way in years. // Pretty much. I’m on a fitness kick. I want to get back to how I looked in 2009-2010.
 
Are you tired right now?
Yeah. // No.
 
Who do you miss a lot right now?
Juliet. // I’m not sure…
 
Who are you going to miss a lot in the next few days?
Juliet, Kate, Tara, Christine… // I don’t know!
 
Do you think you’ll get along better with your siblings when you get older?
No siblings.
 
Do your parents yell at you constantly about "cleaning up after yourself"?
I don’t even live with my parents.
 
Do you do your own laundry?
Yeah… or Dan does haha. // Yes.
 
Do you spend more time watching tv or listening to music?
Varies. 
 
Would you rather give up the computer or the tv?
TV.
 
What sports do you play? 
None.
 
How long have you played?
 
 
What’s your reputation in your family? [i.e.: book worm, superstar, etc] 
Little Miss Perfect.
 
Do you like your handwriting? Hate it? 
I like it.
 
Do you prefer canned or bottled soda? 
Canned.
 
Have you ever seen High School Musical? 
No.
 
Are any of your friends so close that you consider them family? 
Yes.
 
What’s a bad color combination? 
Yellow and brown? // It all depends on shade.
 
How often do you go to the mall? 
At least once a week. // There isn’t even a ‘mall’ in this town. So it varies.
 
Do you enjoy computer games? 
I don’t play them.
 
Are you close with your cousins? 
Not really I don’t see them a lot. One of them was texting me this week but eh. We were like sisters growing up but I guess things change. Actually things don’t change, people change. // No.
 
Is your family tree confusing to explain? 
Yes, because I recently found out my Grandma was adopted so I have no clue about my family tree really.
 
Do you ever write in a journal or diary? 
Rarely. I used to. // Nope.
 
How many times have you had surgery? 
None.
 
Do you rather fruity or minty gum? 
Minty.
 
Do you read any magizines ritually? 
No.