McDonalds

 Just sitting at the Walmart McDs on my lunch break. it’s so much quieter over here…maybe it is just the time of day right now, but there is no one in here..quite peaceful actually. Ive been having a difficult time getting any writing done when I take my break in the lunch room. I’m never alone in there and it feels kind of rude to strap on headphones and tune out my brand new co workers while I attempt at writing. So, today I Didnt bring a lunch and ended up here. It wasn’t the best choice food wise, but for quiet time, writing time…it’s the best choice I’ve made in a long time.

My weight has been on my mind a lot again (I write after eating a McChicken and fries). Rob and I were on the Dukan diet from September to late November and we both did awesome. I lost 40 pounds…down to a weight I hadn’t seen in Years(!) and Rob dropped 75 lbs…to a weight that he doesn’t  remember even being!.

The holidays rolled around and our eating habits went to shit.Rob was able to drop most of what he gained over the holidays and has maintained despite not being on any formal eating plan.I, however, am up 20 out of the 40 I lost, and I feel like shit. My ener is low again, I wake up with a slimy yeasty mouth, fuzzy headed and queezy. I think my bood sugars are out of whack again. Rob said he would get me a meal plan to follow, so we can both get back on track…I’m just not sure I can do it again. We ate protein only for 10 days and then alternated protein and vegetables for 2 solid months. The results were amazing, but it was a struggle to get to them. I’ve struggled with my weight my whole life, and I have placed so much value in the way I look, but it’s still so hard to make the changes I know that I need to make.

Working at Home Depot might make getting back on plan easier….there are no baking treats and calorie laden beverages within a arms reach at all times like there was at Starbucks. The trick with making this situation work for my diet is to be prepared and always have a lunch packed….one that is satisfying and filling. I guess I’ll try talking to rob about it tonight. I know that he wants to get back on plan ASAP….it’s me that has been holding us back.

We had Parker’s 2nd birthday party on the weekend.We had an awesome time, and if nothing else…my mom & my brother and his family were at my house, and speaking in person for the first time since July 18, 2008! My family is slowly making peace with each other…something I have prayed for many times. Its caused me so much heartache ands in over the last 4 years…I truly hope that we have turned the corner on all of this.

Well lunch break is almost over, so I’ve gotta leave my hour of solace. I wish I could sit here longer and write. Next time.