Feeling less than clever

I wish I had some catchy title for today’s entry, but…I don’t. I’m feeling a little "slow" today…these 3am feedings and 3 or 4 visits back to Parkers room between 3:30am and 4am are really catching up with me. Why do I have to go back in 3 or 4 times you ask? Well, because…he learned how to roll over back to front…he hasn’t figured out front to back though and he gets really pissed when he’s stuck on his tummy. I really wish I didn’t need as much sleep as I do…I’ve always been more tired than the average person. Here’s hoping that when I’ve lost some more weight I’ll gain some energy. It’s never happened before, but miracles can happen.

I went to WW yesterday. I didn’t look at the scale and waited until after the meeting and I was safely in the confines of my own house until I looked at my current weight. Shockingly, and with my period starting yesterday too, I’ve only put on 4 lbs from the last weigh in at the beginning of July. Saying that I’m happy with that would be counter-productive to my weight LOSS goals, but holy crackerjacks!…only 4 pounds – that really is amazing especially considering the way that I ate for the last month…there were a lot of cupcakes, ice cream, poutine and…McDonalds. I’m surprised I’m not dead….it was the fear of dying though that kicked me back into gear. The last cheeseburger I ate, I had it running through my head that with each bite, I was shaving a year or more off my life…it scared me.

I thought I had more to write today, but I’m not really feeling it right now. Most of what I want to write is full of bitching and moaning about everything from weight loss to marriage and I’m not sure that I want to waste my time and effort on putting those thoughts into words.

I really need a shower actually, and I should do it while Parker is napping. Day 4 of successful morning naps! Yahoo!

One final note…the banana bread was DELISH!!! I even made a 2nd one and sent it to work with Rob yesterday. Maybe my bad luck at baking has stopped. Maybe I shouldn’t push my luck though. Really, I don’t need to be baking ANYTHING right now.