Where Did Time Go?
My oh my…how time does fly. I was sure I updated only yesterday…….. sigh. I confess – I am having a difficult time keeping up.
This year – so far – seems somehow "easier" in terms of the students …. but yet "harder" at the same time.
Conversation on cooking lab days is usually quite informal while waiting for whatever it is to bake/boil/broil/freeze…….whatever. Snippets of today’s discussion during third hour went something like this….
"Well, Miss, since you already know why I went to court – why wouldn’t they let my sister drop the charges against me for stabbing her?"
"My dad’s in Arizona. In jail. He got a bum rap. Is a kilo a lot? What about 10?? Yeah. 25 years."
"Well my dad will be out of jail in 6 months. I hope."
"I heard that if you run out of rolling papers you can use tissue paper – it just smells funny."
"Hey Miss – I might be a dad. This girl told me she missed her "stuff" – you know…………." What do you think? I don’t think abortion is right………"
"Yeah – when I was gone the last half of last year I was in lock-up for armed burglary. It’s not so bad – my brother got grand theft."
"Miss! You ever been locked up?"
And with every comment I remain calm – often times firing back a witty remark…..and often putting advice out there for the class at large……You know – pointed little witticisms like –
So tell me…. which one of these skills do you think is going to get you farthest in life? Selling those dime bags, hitting the cop that arrested you or trying to polish up your breaking and entering skills on my locked desk?
And a recurring theme in my classes is MAKING GOOD CHOICES. It’s written all over my white board – MAKE GOOD CHOICES!!!
My own childhood was SO far removed from this world – I was a spoiled sheltered princess. (and I LIKED it!) I am appalled every day by what these children live with. More than that – I am amazed that so many of them do so well. These kids live out what would have been my worst nightmare at that age every single day.
And so I find myself getting more and more involved in school life and extra-curricular activities – because, dammitall, somebody needs to. Then I find myself too tired to come and visit here. I spent 4 days last week in bed – sick as heck and pretty immobile. Not enough energy to even sign on to my ISP. So……..
I am seeking balance. If I let them, these kids will totally take over my life. I don’t think that’s exactly what should happen – not the best CHOICE all around. While I continue to run back and forth on the see-saw….I will try my best to catch up here – I miss all of you – and your wit and wisdom – your loves, lives, joys and sorrows. Be back soon…….stay well!
i grew up sorta like these kids….i was very thankful for role models. people i watched and learned from. i knew i didn’t want to grow up and be like my mom or dad, aunts, uncles. i learned all i could and i am still learning. helping only works if it enhances your life as well. come here when you can. this is supposed to be an enhancement to your life too, not a guilt. good to see you.
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I didn’t grow up like these kids at all either. I can only imagine how hard it is for them. You certainly are a good influence and they are lucky to have you in their lives.
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I grew up in an area with a lot of kids facing these problems, but thankfully didn’t experience them myself. It’s so hard to keep that balance when all you want to do is make it better for them. But you have to. Otherwise you won’t be able to help any of them at all. (((hugs)))
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I love you, Too! ((((((BIG HUGS))))))) Those kids are so lucky to have you in their worlds on a daily basis. I can’t imagine growing up in the circumstances some of them are~it’s frightening to me but I can see the resilience of their spirits being fed by you. *Beams you a tender smile* I am anxious to come down for a visit and will do so as soon as the money fairy drops some in my lap!Muwahh!
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You are so kind to care. Too many just don’t care anymore. It is scary though… that kids have to live that way and think such things are normal.
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Sigh. I hope my kids can stay as spoiled as possible for as long as possible, in this area. We had the last of the HS registrations today, middle school’s next week and college after that. This summer has gone by WAY too fast.
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The bus that used to take me into work passed through the nastiest part of the city. Every morning I would see little kids on their way to school stepping over drunks and the homeless sleeping on the sidewalks. I often wondered how that environment affected them. Your kids’ comments make it seem like they take this stuff all in stride. It’s just how things are. It makes me sad.
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Those kids sound like they come from the same kind of place as my kids in CA. You need to have a full 24 hours every week of NO SCHOOL STUFF! I am being serious. I would say 48, but I don’t think I could talk you into that.
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I can understand why you choose to spend more and more time with those kids. I didn’t exactly live the life of a princess, but my life was also far from what these kids see on a daily basis. Part of me envies you for being able to “make a difference.” Your EXHAUSTED has to be a much nicer one than mine.
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So, er, Miss? You didn’t mention if you were locked up or not. hugs
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You do need balance…rest, relaxation, diversion, quiet times for yourself, to keep yourself well. They need you in school, not sick from stress and overwork. But I understand how compelled you must be to give them everything you have, since that’s about all some of them will ever get. Thank God for Miss.
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Your pupils are so lucky to have a teacher who truly cares…I am appalled when I encounter the wide spread apathy of some of my son’s teachers–they often can’t seem to even remember who he is. I went through a whole conference once and they realized they were talking to me about the wrong kid. I think teaching would be so exciting but hard work I realize.
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“I don’t think abortion is right . . . ” Oh, don’t get me started. These kids sound like the kids I dealt with when I was in Chicago. Breaks your heart and makes you laugh all at the same time. Glad to see you back again, Miss P!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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((hugs)) I know what you mean about being too tired to come here. I don’t know how you do it, I would be way too wrapped up in their lives and heartbroken for them all most of the time. I’d either be wanting to bring them home with me, or wanting to kill them! LOL 🙂
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you sound just like my neice. For a good reason too. She spends her days teaching physical science to freshmen.
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Wow I thought for a moment that you were working at a JDC I just don’t hear about those things I have to deal with these types of kids after arrest. I’m not sure what’s going on with our world 2 years ago it was a shock to have a juvenile with a felony, now it’s a 3 or 4 day a week thing. I thank teachers like you for trying to teach “Right Choices” Lael
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You are a very good role model for those kids. That’s far more important than this diary. Not to worry about being deleted. The new rule is 6 months without a post; and then it’s automatic. Sunshine, you stay in my Favs no matter how long it is between posts. Had cataract surgery in June and got drivers license renewed for another 5 years. Sheesh, I’ll be 96 at the next one !
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Amazing isn’t it. Most people do not believe it is true, do they? I do. I hear the same stuff all the time. Hang in there and give out the advice. They bring it up because they want to talk about it and they want someone (an adult) to give them advice. Unlike those teachers who tell them to “shut up and work.” Hugs. r
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I heard our sheriff give a talk about crime & the inmates at our county jail. He said the having someone at home who cared about the child, & reading were critical. The biggest problem is that kids are growing up, but no one is raising them. It’s heartbreaking. Our inmates read at a 3rd grade level. Sad. Find your balance then let the rest go. Your contribution is enormous. Best wishes,
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And YOU stay well! When you said “balance”, you definitely said it all. (Besides, you need enough time to tell us stories from your teaching adventures…hee!)
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the environment some kids grow up in is appalling. YOU are a wonderful model in their lives~
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Fantasic work you are doing with those kids. If they trust you enough to ask you then you are a hero not only to us, but to them too. *HUGS* Keep that vitamin C going ms wolfie.
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RYN: Thank you!
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RYN – *grin* It is good to know that somewhere in Florida I am affecting kids’ test-taking experience just by posting something in my diary. SUCH POWER. :-p
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Why do I always remember Up the Down Staircase when I read your journal?
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You know they will remember you till their dying day…and let’s hope that’s not any time real soon. With amazement for a world beyond the one in which my children live…
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I grew up spoiled. I would have no idea what those kids are going through
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You are wonderful!! You are giving those kids love and alternatives – and yes, it will be surprising how well they will turn out, many of them. And I believe that what goes round comes round (at least it always has for me.) I can see much joy coming back to you, for the rest of your life.
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woah! those kids are wild, as are their lifestyles. For me, being in my little hidey hole of a country, its pretty conservative so those occurrences aren’t very common over here. Good for you for being able to answer those questions so stolidly. I’d have freaked out and gone nuts! Anyway aside from all that, good to have you back. 🙂
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ryn: Yes, the very best. I like that. ‘Course, I’d have to brush my hair and climb out of my sweats early to accomplish that and…well….today I am going to be very medicore. And love it. lol Was happy to hear that you would rule in the pen should the need ever arise, I hear it’s all in the stare. (rotf)
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RYN: Yep, that is exactly how I am. I really think it has a lot to do with us being females who are normally attracted to males, therefore regardless of age, if we meet one who is cute/charming/funny, we react. Tie that up with moody teenage girls who have raging hormones & a false sense of themselves (look at me I am sooo hot)who would kill their own mother to date the HOT BOY & well there it is.
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What’s still great, Wolfie, is that these kids are able to say these things to you. Whether for shock value or otherwise, your reaction will help to build their confidence in themselves.
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