November 13, 2002

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Reflections

For those of you who have already grabbed your mirrors and begun to sing “I feel pretty…oh so pretty…” – I am not talking about that sort of reflection. However, what I am about to set out here may seem a bit far-fetched for the more pragmatic mind…so feel free to go back to your mirror at any point.

My friend Mercedes has been flounding around with her feelings & her direction in life. She wanted to consult a psychic and I offered her the phone # of a woman who I highly respect. She was my teacher in several things I undertook and I have a huge respect for her. For a “woo-woo” type of person she is very focused deals with real life squarely rather than evaporating into some ethereal psychic cloud every time she is faced with a “situation”. She has a wonderful sense of humor and faces life with a smile.

So, Mercedes called her and scheduled a reading. She asked me to sit in and listen. The voyeur in me jumped at the chance.

The reading was interesting. It seems that it was a GOOD thing that her recent relationship has ended. (I could have told her that. Matter of fact, I DID!) Mercedes asked, are you sure? There’s no chance? “Faith” (the psychic) laughed. Then she explained her laughter. “You ought to see this. The card relating to this relationship is a guy laying in a bloody heap on the ground being pierced by 7 spears.” I’d have thought Mercedes would get the message. Not so. “But is there ANY chance for it?” Finally Faith gave a small glimmer of hope that MAYBE in 6-12 months, after they had both changed and grown, there is a small tiny pore of an opening allowing the relationship to resume. So guess what Mercedes took out of that answer? Yep – that it’s possible that she can “win” and get HIM back.

On the work front, Faith told her that it is her ‘ship’ and she should remain in control. (I groaned inwardly – nothing like encouraging a control freak!) Then she told her that, although the $$ hasn’t been coming in as we had hoped, that the reallly important thing that has happened as a result of our working together is that we have learned to do just that. And that the potential is there, we just need to package the service differently – get a little creative.

There was more…but these are the things that I zeroed in on.

So…I called Faith for my own appointment. I have been feeling wrung out and listless lately. I have not begun to feel ‘settled’ in my new life/home. This job with Mercedes has been a challenge (to over-understate the facts)and, after my thorough career ass-chapping in Atlanta, I am terrified that I’ll never find something I like to do or be able to support myself doing it. (Say it after me – paralyzing emotional fears)

Among other things – she tells me that I need to stick this thing with Mercedes out. I need to step up and take ownership of my part and not let her run over me. That there is a huge $$ potential there and lessons I MUST learn – or else they’ll come back and slap me in the face again.

As for the tired, apathetic listlessness…seems I have acquired something which has attached itself to my root chakra and is siphoning off my energy with great enthusiasm. EEEEEEEEwwwwwwwwwwwwWWWWWWWWW. We’re not talking ‘possession’ here so don’t go looking for me to start my head spinning and green goop to spew forth. (Although that is a rather entertaining mental picture…). The interesting part is that Faith told me about that before I even had the opportunity to tell her about the listlessness and drained feeling I had. Faith doesn’t do long-distance gunky-thing removals, so I have a call in to someone else. If I’m gonna have something hanging onto my ass, I want him to look a lot like Val Kilmer…not some yucky blob with tentacles.

And there was more….but I must be out of room by now… and I see what I need to do, but am somehow unable to carry through. No…no depression allowed. And I don’t do drugs. (Remember my dad? The man who shot his TV set under the influence of Prozac and Zoloft and God knows what else?)

And so….I continue to crawl out of my hole daily, but it’s getting harder. Honest to goodness, I should have been born independently wealthy!

Re: your last sentence, shouldn’t we all. Can I say without offending that you ‘bitch’ in the most entertaining ways. I feel sympathy and empathy towards your plight, but still you make me smile with amusement at your writing. You need to put your writing to financial use and write some cutsey, amusing romantic comedy, you are so good.

Independently wealthy with Val Kilmer. Now that would be the best! LOL 🙂

darkart

November 14, 2002

*grin* You got chicky and young stud. That about places you above Bill Gates and Ted Turner me thinks? 😉

Nectar

November 14, 2002

Now this thing has been revealed it will go…and it is a matter of you constantly cleaning your aura…and disconecting it repeatedly so it cannot come back…huggles you warmly

lifeisuhmistury

November 14, 2002

*Beams you a smile* Just remember to check your “old fashioned” mailbox regularly, too! *Sly grin* I love you Wolfie, woman…it’s starting to feel like we are twins. (I’m coming to visit when it gets really bitter cold here…be your live in chef in exchange for room and board?!!) Sending you lots of good vibes, my friend.Shall we visit Sweden together?Apple cake and vanilla cream w/ Moonlady?:)

I wouldn’t mind a reading either, but…. how do you find someone you can trust? 🙁

Okay, I don’t speak woo-woo, so what, pray tell, is a “root chakra?” It sounds painful. No wait a minute, that’s “root canal.” I’m confused. Maybe that explains my inability to get Adam to marry me–my root chakra is out of whack. Or unrooted. Or something. Help! Well, anyway, here’s hoping your root gets rooted, or whatever the hell it’s supposed to do, and that Val is involved!

Willy & Wilma

November 14, 2002

Faith’s advice to stick with Mercedes sounds wise to me. As the song goes, You can’t always get what you wa-ant. The economy seems to continue spiralling lower. The Fed cut the interest rate to 1.25%. The bank has been down to 1% on my savings acct for almost a year. That’s below the inflation rate. If our Govt were a private corporation it would be bankrupt

aquaphoric

November 14, 2002

I would just like to point out that you made a really bad pun. You said Mercedes couldn’t continue to run you over. *snickers* I know, I know it’s not funny, but… I’m sorry… you cracked me up unintentionally. Good luck getting the octopus off of your butt. I wonder what people would say if you told them you had an octopus hanging on you? You’d prolly be committed. Feel better *hugs*

Why, thank ya for the link, ma’am! Shore do appreciate it! Now I can speak elementary woo-woo! I know what a chakra is now! YAY!!!!!!

*~*Lady Moon*~*

November 14, 2002

I am terrified that I’ll never find something I like to do or be able to support myself doing it. this I do feel the same as you… And this entry was really interesting, I hope it all wil work out well for you and M! Thanks for your sharing…. You are a wonderful person, to me….Lots of roses and love

Sorry, dear lady, I dont buy it;) If you werre born independently wealthy, you would not be the wonderful person you are now, honed and shaped as you are by adversity. Conflict carves beautiful character..and you are a gorgeous soul. Dont forget it;)

ermentrude

November 15, 2002

This may be a cliche but SW sweetie, you got a wealth in your family, your humour and in you. Money is great I give you that and I know I’ve been really down at times I thought I’d never climb out of a hole created by credit card companies (am I putting the balme on someone other than me!) but life is better. *hugs* you do good, you always have and you’ve been an inspiration to me a lot of times.

ermentrude

November 15, 2002

RYN: I’ve lain awake at night pondering that very question!

November 15, 2002

guess i should go check my chakras. sounds too much like me these days

vitamins and walking down the beach woman, those help. i’m telling you what you already know. Get walkin. I know, why don’t you hop a flight here and drive me to the beach. i need to walk and we can play woooo at the stars. Do you know how to do a celtic tree oracle deck? I got one that seems to say, hey frog, you aren’t a tree.

Ainekate

November 15, 2002

Darn!!! I was all set to get the holy water & cross ready for the exorcism. Oh well! I have to agree with what most of the noters above. Know how you feel about work thing, & wish I was independently wealthy too. Hang in there. Get your chakra cleansed, it wouldn’t hurt (no pun intended)& take your friend’s advise to heart. I like her, she sounds smart. *with a big warm hug*

Mns

November 16, 2002

i’m hearing some “amens” in your note section about being independently wealthy! me too! hehe.. but then again like another noter suggested, it’s those firey trials that refine us into stronger character (if it doesn’t kill us first.. lol). i wrote something in private once, a reminder to myself…

Mns

November 16, 2002

when i feel like a pebble on the ocean shore, where the surf thunders and pounds against me with merciless waves, tossing me against the sharp cliffs, day and night…. i try to remember that the result is beautiful polished stone! :::looks in mirror:::: hmmm… lol.. hang in there! 🙂

Just for the record I take Zoloft, and I do not shoot up my tv set. LOL! I do like the independently wealthy part though. Where do I sign up? I am reading and deleting all notes in my diary, so don’t hesitate to leave them. If you want, I could e-mail you instead- my husband has been reading my diary, and I don’t like it. My e-mail address is sinkopation@hotmail.com.

what if he looked like michael caine?

Many thanks for your notes. I do feel that I must advise that Muriel does not read much and she thinks Geo Bush is a gardening tv presenter coz he has a white house and a green lawn. Faith and Mercedes may approve the thought. Who knows??? Luv alexias

Hello. I could relate to this entry. I also go to pychics. They predicted a relationship breaking up and it did. it was my brothers relationship. They also predicted children which has not happened yet. I also know about the fear of finding something to make a living at. I run my own business and sometimes wonder if I did the right thing. Take care.

wow. i wish i could help. but i’m just now getting my abilities back

Torin

November 19, 2002

I forget what I was going to say. I need some sleep. Or sex. Or both. With a grin…

I gotta second that motion: EEEEEEEEwwwwwwwwwwwwWWWWWWWWW!!! Maybe a large can of Raid is in order. ~:P ArtImp, nsi