April 14, 2001

Of Cabbages and Kings

The world spins and spins and spins. Sometimes it seems so fast that I want to grab something, close my eyes and hang on for dear life. Nothing else just hang on. That hanging on seems to take every bit of my energy and concentration.

Today is day 9 of my struggle with the apartment complex management and the case of the intermittent air conditioner. With temperatures in the 80s and the whole world outside my windows a swirl of yellow pollen, I have not been a happy camper. As it stands now: 1) The complex manager keeps thanking me for being so understanding 2) The maintenance man has been here so often that I think he now believes we are an item 3) The weather man promises a plunge in the temperatures for the coming week. And so it goes.

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I have been taking a class in energy healing. Its been interesting and fun. It started as a step in the Get SW a life plan. Things dont always work out as you think they will. The woman leading the class is wonderful. There are not rigid correct or incorrect answers or methods. She encourages everyone to find their own way. She appears to be a joyful and grounded person. Ive enjoyed the learning although I have avoided incorporating it in daily life as is my habit.

This past week we tried out some distance healing. First we were given the names of the people and the area that needed work. A guided meditation followed during which we were to see what we got about these people. In both cases the information I got was slightly different from the other people in the class and right on the money. The images I was receiving were odd, but when I spoke them out loud and received the facts about those people, the images were not odd at all, but precisely symbolic. I found that odd, but interesting.

We tried again, with two more people. The only information this time was their names. Without all the details, I hit it twice more. On the nose. Exactly. The teacher asked us how we felt. I made light of it, said I was scared and wanted to go home and crawl into bed. That was 4 days ago.

Since that time, my world has been spinning out of control. I have questions about everything. Nothing feels right. I dont fit my skin. Today I was watching a teen flick about cheerleaders and found myself crying over it. Yep theres nothing so emotional as a cheerleading flick. ARGH!

I am feeling regrets. Thats not something I usually indulge in. I have always thought regrets were counter productive to forward motion.

My sister is having trouble with her leg. I summoned up my courage this morning and did some woo-woo energy stuffand its fear in her leg. So, how do I explain that to her medically?

How do I go to work tomorrow and focus without losing my mind or my job, for that matter. You know that path were all on? The one that stretches before us for our entire lives as we journey along? That one. Well, mine just ended broke off. I cant find where it picks back up again.

Im sure it would all be better if I had air conditioning and wasnt inhaling yellow pollen by the bucketful. It would be, wouldnt it?

where is your title from?

Oh my dear, you have just begun the journey into Spirit. Carolyn Myss talks about what you are doing. Her books about being a medical intuitive are wonderful and may be just what you need. She has several. Pick the ones you feel will serve you best. The audiotapes of Spiritual Chaos carried me through my times of confusion, as did my talks with Li Chang. Sending you strength and support!

Well maybe it’s cos you’re seeing everything in a new light so that’s why you’ve sorta lost your way. Don’t worry too much, I’m sure you’ll find your way again soon. All the best Sunshine! haha alas I’ve had no new inspiration so I can honestly say the song in progress is still that, a song in progress. 🙂 -darkart

I have thought about finding a healer but not sure where to start. I think you will have some strange thoughts until you learn more. (I’m glad there are people like you)

I’ll be back, SW — thank you — both to read past entries and to visit in the present — hope the air’s fixed soon and/or the maintainence guy is fairly cute..g…(with independent wealth, perhaps?). Good week ahead for you, I hope —

SW, I don’t know whether you read my Reiki series, but it is a form of energy healing. Fascinating stuff. Good for you. Oh, you don’t even want to be in my home this summer. Gets to be in the 100s and blackouts are assured. I am not looking forward to August.

The movie in question wouldn’t have been Bring it On would it? If so, I admit to getting teary-eyed in that one too.

Hang in there! Hugs,

Hey, SW!! This sounds fantastic! You haven’t reached the end of the path, you have found a new one that needs to have the first step taken! The spinning is the fact that you are now “opening up” to the world and it is trying to all ruch in at once! it will settle down. Be excited about this, SW. I knew you were something special 😉 Oh RYN: I’d like to hear those guesses!!! Hugz

When one is physically uncomfortable, which you obviously are without the airconditioner, you’re bound to not fit in your skin and feel at a dead-end. When I’m like that, I cry over dog food comercials. I hope you can get the airconditioner to run properly soon. I have a feeling that will help how you feel emotionally a great deal. 🙂 Shalom,

As long as you are in touch with the real, you can never go back. Healing and living are contrary to hiding and ignoring. Good work wolfie gal, your path was never down that road, i knew that was in there when you spoke of an overturned jeep long before i had met your external shell, and noticed that inner spirit. Isn’t life fabulous, even the tornadic parts?

Oh, the joys of being empathic! Did you/she remember to “hang up” after you were done? When you open up to receive info, you need to shut off again, once you’re through. Otherwise, it’s like leaving the phone off the hook and anyone (and usually everything) can dial in and leave noise on your line. Here are a few suggestions: Visualize a large, clear container around you (as if you were a ship (c)

(2) in a bottle) and then see golden white cleansing light filling the container and you. Once it’s full, put a cork in the top. That one works really well for me. Another one is to talk to the feelings, kinda along this line. If you are my feelings, here to impart a message to me, you are invited to stay and dialogue with me. If you are not my feelings and are, instead, someone else’s (c)

(3) feelings, I demand that you leave now and return to your source.Then take a nice hot shower. If the feelings are still hanging around, try a meditation and just ask them what they want you to know. Hope this helps and I hope you continue your path, while incorporating some good-for-you stuff into the practice. 🙂

Hi Mommy, Hi Mommy, Hi Mommy – sorry I couldn’t resist. I’ve been catching up on yr entries. Good staying power Mom, I would have blown up as soon as I saw the kitchen. This is just my thought but if my path got broke bec of what you’ve been experiencing I’d go straight to the teacher and hash it out. She’d probably have some great insight. just a thought.

Torin Invanusson

April 16, 2001

You tell her that it is tension she is holding and that she has to speak to her leg and let the tension go. Some people cannot hear the ‘woo-woo’ stuff, so you find ways around it. Tell her you are using the electromagnetic fields around her body interacting with your EM field–whatever her mind will accept. Good luck and warm blessings…

Hmm…I’m thinkin’ a couple less pounds of pollen in your immediate breathing space is probably going to do you a world of good (and the rest will work itself out perhaps??). Hope that air gets fixed soon…in the meantime, wishing you low temps and some peace of mind. ~:)

Oh dear. I feel your pain….when you say “I don’t fit in my skin” that made me really think….and then I laughed. A lot! I don’t think I ever heard that expression before. Is that something you just made up or is it something that I missed while watching that movie where Rhett Butler says “frankly my dear” for the thousandth time?

Hang in there and don’t let that nasty pollen get ya!

they’ll fix it now SW, the temps are going to the 40’s! :O) it all sounds good, what you’re doing… be well!

Energy healing! California needs that something awful, their energy situation needs a lot of healing. You could write Gov. Davis and offer to help. P.S. enjoying the cool weather today?

This class seems to have touched you in some important way. My own journey has taught me that the times when my world felt as though it was about to disintegrate beneath my feet were the times that held the greatest opportunity for meaningful and lasting changes for the better. I use the Chineese perspective a lot now…”crisis” is defined as “A dangerous opportunity” I hope you can find yours,SW.

Willy & Wilma

April 19, 2001

Never heard of energy healing before. Experience tells me the mind can influence the physical state. Learning how to use energy healing would be great! Faith healing is probably another door to the same place.

Great to see you here thinking great thoughts again

I just wanted you to know that you were the only one to encourage me in keeping my own power (about the house thing) in spite of everything going on. You hit the nail on the head…you were the only one to catch that…and I appreciate it.

Thanks for the hugs, sending them back to you.