June 25, 2000

Brain Cramps

Do you think it’s the season? Summer is in full swing – it’s hot, hot, hot – and I am a total and complete 100% slug. I don’t know if I’m leaving a slime trail or not (I really try not to – it’s SO obvious) but I am in full slug mode.

I look at my apartment and see that it needs some tidying up. Then I go in my room and read a book.

I look at my car and see that it needs an oil change. Then I plan to take it in at some indeterminate date in the future. Then I go in my room and read a book.

I look at my computer and think of the e-mails I need to answer. Then I play a game of solitare or two. Then I go in my room and read a book.

I look at my story and the ideas swirl around the fringes of my brain. So I go in my room and read a book.

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My son is going to Belize for vacation next week. I am suffering from a near terminal bout of jealousy.

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Last week an uninvited guest paid me a visit. The end result was that my daughter slept in my room that night with a butcher knife on the headboard. I had gone to bed and everything was locked up tight. My daughter was on a marathon AOL chat session with her friends. At 1:30 AM she came and dragged me out of bed. She was white and more than a bit shaky. On the living room floor (the same living room floor that was freshly vacuumed and totally uncluttered with ANYTHING when I went to bed) was a deck of UNO cards. They were arranged with a draw pile, a discard pile and a hand that appeared to be in play. The cards are kept in another room. The doors & windows were locked. The dog had not sounded the alarm. No one was in the apartment but us. How did this happen? No answer that didn’t flip my daughter out was apparent. So who’s trying to get my attention with a deck of UNO cards?

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My sister was here over the weekend. Our mother visited her in her dreams while she was here. The messages involved were for me, not my sister. Sis asked that very specifically. The answer was that Sis knew what she was doing – I was the one Mom wanted to talk to. Mom probly never felt I listened to her when she was alive, so why would I start now?

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I re-listened to a taped session I had with a psychic a while back. He noted that I had been a high priestess in more than one previous lifetime which was all well and good until other religions came along and started banning high priestesses. Then this became a very dangerous occupation. I couldn’t help but wonder if that explains my reluctance to embrace things I know are right for me – a hangover from a previous life experience. It’s not so easy to be fond of something that gets you decapitated or drawn and quartered.

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I am floating listlessly. Things are not “wrong” in my life, so why should I take any big steps? But that’s a trap, isn’t it? I feel like perhaps I am missing some things but apparently not enough to go out and find them. Whatever.

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So there it is….slugdom from my point of view in a nutshell. I’m going to Florida this weekend for the 4th… Maybe I’ll come back with more than a sunburn and a case of road rage. Maybe I’ll come back with some direction. I’m gonna scour some of those little stores along the beach and see if they have a special on passion. I think I’m severely deficient in passion right about now. Passion – that stuff that makes you jump out of bed happy to greet the day. The stuff that gives life purpose beyond mere existence. The stuff that great stories are made of.

Good to see an entry from you! Slugdom has its place, I think. We all need “down time”. We get caught in the trap of always feeling obligated to look busy. The Uno card thing made my hair stand on end! Gad!

If the cards were from somebody on the other side then the knife wouldn’t be much protection! Belize isn’t such a nice place to go to. Trust me, I’ve been! But as for Florida!! I am jealous. Hope you enjoy! Hugz

Belize will be HOT. jeez, didn’t you have a tarot deck for the poor ghost?

Passion does all that? And here I was trying to accomplish all that stuff with good strong coffee. who would’ve thunk it? 🙂 Love + Hugs,

i dont believe in ghosts..i dont believe in god…but I DO believe in your uno cards..and i have goosebumps!! What could the message be??..and waht would be so urgent your mother would be trying to contact you? (and i dont believe in ghosts!!) [Chrysalis]

Well, that’s an interesting bunch of happenings! Hope your weekend went well. I’m back and have received a special delivery Slug Mail! ~:)

darkart

June 26, 2000

The uno card part sounds kinda creepy. Anyway have fun in florida and an end to slugdom!!

Hope you enjoy Florida. I don’t have much faith in Uno cards. I do believe that our makeup is both a physical body and a spiritual body. Do not fear your mother if she appeared in your sisters dream.

Hey sweetie, Uno, what kind of a game is that? Have fun in Florida, the passion will likely return when you quit banging on your own head. Go and have a nice little affaire. 😉 Peace and love (lots of it),

darn !!! you didn’t say what yr mom told yr sis !! uno cards , creepers !!! passion ???????? i think i remember that !!!! have a good slug er , time 🙂

I’m laughing because I’ve done all the procrastinating things at the beginning of your entry over the last 2 days – I’m 2000 miles overdue for an oil change!

Its the heat SW…. hard to do anything when its 120 outside. Have a great trip to FL!! :O)

I’m jealous you’re going to FL. You KNOW how much I wish I could go along. Alas, I will tend my passions, and await your return.Been missing you, glad you postedShall we play a hand of UNO now dear?RECREATE!

You’re too hot and you’re going to Florida?

The UNO cards gave me chills. I do believe in ghosts and I do believe in messages from dreams. I dreamed of a welcome but unexpected visitor too this weekend?? Enjoy Florida!

I feel the slugdom also. Florida, I wish I was there lying on the warm sand with a Long Island Ice Tea. Enjoy

Time for one of those wireless security systems. As for Belize, sure it’s one of the loveliest places on earth but you shouldn’t think about it…

You ROCK! I’m glad I’m back! 🙂

That would have freaked me right out! I am glad to see that all is well though. {{{{{HUGS}}}}}

Your notes are always welcome, even if they ramble! Good for the young cop, he did the right thing, making it right with you. There may be hope! 🙂

I DO believe in ghosts, but that Uno card thing is still weird. Pick up some Tarot cards–maybe next time you’ll have a message to decipher. Have fun down here in FL!

The cards are too weird – obviously, someone justs want you to know they are around. Always remember, he/she/it can NOT hurt you (physically). I’ll get back with you on that, OK?

Interesting stuff here – Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, keep us posted.

OK, u have one weird life SW! Baby’s almost here…KIDD J(nsi)

sleepwalking?? maybe. who knows (twilight zone music). you should be a slug at P and A’s, there are millions and you could party with them all the time, oh and they keep eating sunflowers which sounds SO yummy 😉

Whoa! SW quit fighting what’s right for you. Life is dangerous and they quit drawing and quartering and burning. You, me, we’ll be okay as long as we follow our hearts. Peace and love,

Wow, that stuff about the Uno cards is a bit scary. I wonder, did you play that game with your mother? Just drawing paralells. I hope you have a great 4th of July weekend. Blessed be.

floating listlessly has its attributes – it’s not to be confused with unobtrusive spells of false security – passion is there for the taking –

I hope you find your passion.

Fascinated by the High Priestess. Tell me more. We may have met up then

Pick up some extra and I’ll pay you double for it! XOXO

Slugdom hits everyone at one time or another. Me too! Thanks for the good wishes. Have a happy Fourth of July! What a weird happening you describe! Have you solved the mystery?

All hail Queen of Slugdom. I dont think it is Summer. Cause it is Winter over here, and I am suffering from the same malaise. Lotsa love, Duchess of Slugdom.

sophist

July 6, 2000

“…now I’m serving time for mistakes made by another lifetime/how long til my soul gets it right/can any human being ever reach that kind of light…”Indigo Girls, Galileo–it’s not passion you need but some down time 🙂

Mns

July 8, 2000

Ooo… the Uno card thing was really strange, maybe somebody did it in their sleep? *shivers* hope you had a nice 4th in Florida!

darkart

July 9, 2000

haha *grin* I agree too many black balloons filling the sky would make it seem so gloomy and dark! Blue, red, yellow, green, purple and a hundred more colours would fill the sky me thinks!

None of my bizzwax, but why is Grumpy saying U shouldn’t be thinking about Belize? What is Belize? How about that deserted island that the Survivor show is filmed on? Only we’ll refuse rodents for dinner.

heh heh, read Grumpy’s note he left in my diary on 07/01 about the cynical list being more ‘realizm”.

But, I fluff you more!!!!

chutes

July 9, 2000

So nice you stopped by! Always happy to see you, Sunshine. **hugs** NannyOgg, not signed in, naughty me. heeheehee

Hi SW! Thanks for the visit and notes. I am trying to catch up, but it ain’t easy. I’ll be bach, as Arnold would say. Till then, stay positive no matter what!

oh my, it seems to be a particularly sluggy summer! (pardon me while I crawl back into my hole) Uno cards? Sounds like a fairly benign visitor, but a mystery nonetheless.

you know, we could meet, drop off your car, sit you in the volvo, (tho the ac sucks in it that’s why it has to park in the shade) and go to burrito art. 🙂