Be Careful What You Ask For

Remember a few entries back when I was in panic mode because my ex had decided not to come up with the money he owes me in back child support (and it was THOUSANDS of dollars)?

<Hey wait – I just had an idea.  If I post his name and address here, you can all send him hate mail!  Yeah!!!!>

Sorry – my evil twin took over they keyboard for a minute there.  Back on task now.  ANYWAY – I DID go see an attorney – and without getting all wrapped around the axle with the explanation here – I can take him to court.  However, the $$ amount of the outcome is uncertain and it will be a long drawn out process.  The undertainty of the outcome makes it a long drawn out process with no appreciable reward at the end.  I decided not to bother.  He’s not worth the sweat off my hiney and I am not giving him one more thought – ever.  Goodbye to bad rubbish.

However, I was still faced with an income shortfall.  Fortunately I was able to consolidate and refinance my debt so that it should be manageable going forward.  That is a blessing. 

All sounds pretty good so far, doesn’t it?  I took the high road and am able to meet my financial obligations.  So why the "Be Careful" title?

While I was in panic mode I addressed myself to God, the Universe, the Supreme Being….however it is that you refer to that supreme being/life force in us all.  And I said…no…I demanded that the powers that be find me a way to make some additional income and make ends meet.  And that’s where the trouble begins.

Last week my principal told me I was to be involved in the after school program we’re starting.  4 afternoons a week – cooking class – yippee!  Some extra money! 

Yesterday, one of my fellow teachers asked me if I was still interested in working at the baseball concession stand with him.  So here it is – I am essentially working 3 jobs right now.  Every minute I am not in school, I am at the baseball field.

It’s not that I’m ungrateful – but I’m afraid this may just wipe me out!  I am not in the best physical condition and standing this amount of hours HURTS.  I have a leg that swells easily  I have no time to plan lessons or just chill out. 

BUT I did ask….and got more answer than I was prepared to deal with.  I hate to say no to any of it…becuase THAT seems llike ingratitude. 

I’m tired.

All day today I sold burgers, hot dogs, fries, boiled peanuts, candy, drinks, popcorn, cheese sticks, chips, chicken tenders, egg and bacon sandwiches, coffee and other "stuff".  I peddled my wares to some of the cutest litte brothers and sisters of baseball players…and enthusiastic parents and grandparents….and crazy people…and wonderful people…and …..

I’m tired.

Chickie is out running around with her friends.  I want to go to bed – but I don’t dare.  I just don’t dare.  When can I ever let my guard down?

I need to finish paying bills.

My stonach is a little upset.

Cassidy has sardine breath.  I really HAVE to find a better food to keep his coat healthy – one that doesn’t give him FISH BREATH.

I’m so tired that tears are running down my face as I sit here typing and yawning – and I’m not even upset.

I never thought I’d look forward to going back to school to get a REST!