it happens for a reason

They say everything happens for a reason, right?  I sure hope I find out soon.

Today, I was dropped from my job which was going to take me to Iraq, due to not being able to get my security clearance.  I’ll be paid through today, and tomorrow, the job search commences.  I was really looking forward to going, experiencing the whole thing, and being debt free for the first time in my life, BUUUUTTTT, I guess it wasn’t meant to be at this point. 

I’m not sure what made me not able to get my security clearance.  The company said they did not have any of that information.  I will have to go directly to DIA to get that information, so that is exactly what I am planning on doing.  I have to find out what would cause me to be denied a clearance.  There is nothing I can think of, besides the two DUI’s that should create any problems.  However, those should not cause any problems either, as neither of them was a felony, and all of my “debts” to society have been paid.  Living in the DC area, however, if I am not clearable, I might as well just leave the area, because almost everything here needs a clearance.  At least the jobs which would pay enough to get ahead do. 

I hate having to tell everyone that I am not going now.  I don’t like hearing everyone say how bad they feel for me, even though I know it is their true feelings.  I guess I’m just one of those people who doesn’t like others to feel bad for him.  I do believe, though, that no matter what life throws at me, I can, and more importantly, WILL get through it.  Since this door of opportunity has been closed, there must be another one around the corner that is going to open up, right? 

I was able to get caught up on a few bills from this job, and also send my younger brother a nice housewarming present for his new house.  Hopefully I’ll be able to find a new job soon, and be able to keep ahead of the game! 

And, I won’t be the target of rocket propelled grenades!  That’s gotta count for something, right? 

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