Set fire to the rain

I used to write here so often. I just don’t get the chance anymore and it’s really frustrating.

Our sales coach did this spill on balance in life the other morning. It was totally a crock of shit like all of his stuff is, it does make me think though. My balance in life is wayyy off. But it’s the way I like it. He said that things don’t function properly if you don’t have all of your boxes in some form of balance, home life, health, sleep, fitness, social, family, fun etc. My balance in life is fitness to work to home. My social life is in the fitness, as is the fun. Those girls at the gym are like my family now.

I know it’s probably unhealthy how I don’t want to go out on weekends and spend time with my friends etc. I just don’t want to. Maybe it’s just age. Maybe it’s the fact that I leave my house at 5.50AM and don’t get home until 7-8PM. Maybe it’s the fact that I spend over 2.5 hours in my car traveling everyday. Maybe it’s because I bust my ass at work all week. When it gets to the weekend, I just want to REST. I just want to sit around and do nothing. I have my two hours at the gym on Saturday morning and I have allllll of Saturday to chill, Sunday is my only lay in day, I go grocery shopping and cook all my lunches and snacks for the week. I think I would burn out without this.

Having said that I still go out and do stuff. Last weekend I skipped between town for Lara’s going away and Emma’s birthday drinks. This Saturday night I have my work XMAS party and Emma’s sisters engagement party, I have NO idea how I am going to juggle these two either as they’re basically on freakin opposite sides of the state. I would love to just go to the Xmas party but I’m going to their wedding in Bali next year (WOO!) so I need to go!

I went though all my holiday photos that I got printed and put my favourites on the wall, replaced all my old surfing posters, which were only there because I couldn’t be fucked taking them down. Now every time I look up from the PC I see all my photos of America, Vanuatu and some misc gym stuff as well 🙂 You’re on my wall Jacq 😉

So the nutrition side of things is going awesomely.  I lost a kg in two weeks.  That’s unheard of from me lately.  Ever since I’ve been working out of much I can’t lose anything.  I put that down mainly to the fact that I probably was losing but I’m gaining muscle mass as I can see some definition now.  My new protein powder tastes amazing.  I think that’s what’s working for me, upping my protein intake massively.  I was also eating a lot of low calorie things out of a box, eg muesli bars and stuff that yes is low cal but also doesn’t have a lot of nutrition.  I have a way flatter stomach in just 2 weeks, which I put down to water weight, clearly no longer bloated from crap.  I haven’t been hell strict though, I still had maccas for tea last night, I had a tiny serving of lasagne tonight for tea with a heap of veg.  Just making better choices but not restricting myself.  Prepared!!

I made more kangaroo and broccoli today to stock up the fridge for lunches and also a healthy fried rice, brown rice, egg whites, chicken, capsican, onion and mushrooms.  Stocked up on quick cook brown rice, that has been saving me heaps lately.  Complex carbs, that’s what you need.  Problem in my family is that dad is so fussy, everything in our house is white, simple carbs.  White bread, white pasta, white rice, nothing wholemeal.  Unhealthy, bloating stuff.

On Tuesday they’re taking us out for winning the achievers award.  Exciting :).  I’m a little annoyed this month because you can work as much overtime as you want and it doesn’t add to your target.  So I have to work twice as hard to get sales because I don’t want to work any overtime and I need to keep in number 1 position.  People are upping their targets because they’re working the equivilent of 2 extra shifts a week to me.  Well that’s only my competitive side coming out.  There’s no reason I need to hog that possie all the time.  I just don’t want to spend extra time at work.  The pay is awesome but it’s only money.  Money isn’t a huge driver for me, there’s more important things in life.

I had a passion day last Friday at the Dog’s Home Hobart.  Work pays us once a year to do a day of charity work.  I got to walk dogs all day long, it was so fun, out in the sun, running dogs all day!  Tan, fitness and puppies, best day ever haha.  I wanted one of the dogs soooooo bad though.  I would’ve got her if my mum would have not legit kicked me out of home.  Boo.

Okay this is why I need to write more.  Mass entry.