Overhaulin’

I still fail at updating.  Nothing of interest has been happening any who.

I finished number one in sales again last month, I got a total of $2740 commission last month, not bad really!  With my normal pay on top of that though I got taxed over a grand.  Sucks.  This month they’ve been stuffing us around, we’ve been doing inbound and outbound both Vodafone and 3 brands, they have no idea what are numbers are or who’s in front.  They just know that we’re way under target.  Even though I’ve personally made mine, I’ll still miss out on $400 cause the group are shit in sales.  Not really lol, they swapped campaigns and some of the new guys had never worked on the other brand using new systems.

Lara left work officially this week 🙁 She’s moving to Melbourne with a friend. Work is so beyond boring without her there.  She’s the only one there with my sense of humour.  We get away with sooo much at work, everyone stirs us for being "favourites" and we are really, one of our team leaders is like a second mother and she lets us do things that she yells at others for.  Bleh I’ll get used to her not being there, it’s just more boring now.

I’ve been surfing bodybuilding.com recently and although I don’t want to look super cut like the girls there, I do want more muscle tone to be visual.  I have an obsession with fitness, and to me now, those girls that most people cringe at and call disgusting, I think look amazing.  Not to the full extent though, wait lemme find a pic.

Those girls are AMAZING!  I’m starting to see definition in my biceps and a little in my chest.  I was to be able to see my triceps.  Get rid of that ugly skin that just sits there and wobbles.

So I needed a plan to do this of coarse.  I started off by ordering a new protein powder, the one I use only has 18G of protein per serve and lots of artificial crap to make it taste better.  Bumped it up to one with 24G, which is all I need per serve and lots more minerals etc.  I also ordered a new multivitamin off the site, I only take a Swisse Women’s one at the moment and I know that they’re not the best out there.  The one I got a lot of athletes use etc.  I also got creatine in chewable pill format.  I had no idea they existed but it makes it so much better for me to take before I go to the gym of a night after work, no prep.

Then I went shopping today, stocked up on fresh green veg, kangaroo meat, chicken, eggs, turkey, cottage cheese, brown rice, greek yoghurt etc.  I sauteed some garlic, added kangaroo meat and steamed broccoli into that once it was cooked to put into containers for lunch, I roasted some sweet potatoes to take to work as well.  I made some buckweat pancakes for lunch, I’ve never tried these before, they’re in my Michelle Bridges cookbook but I couldn’t find buckweat.  I found it today and decided to try it, it was alright, I put protein powder in it to give it some taste, it would have been beyond disgusting if I didn’t.  Certainly not as good as I thought.

I made them look good though huh 😉

Kangaroo and broccoli 😉

So yeah hopefully I might see a change in my body, I know that I eat too much crap and that’s why it’s not responding to all the exercise.  But I want to see if I can fit some more strength work in.

At the moment I’m only doing classes.

Monday Combat

Tuesday Personal Training with Michelle (weights)

Wednesday Pump (weights)

Thursday Body Attack then Bike Max (both cardio)

Friday Bike and then Pump

Saturday Body Attack and Body Combat.

Sunday rest.

I know I’m getting stronger.  I’ve upped my squat weight, chest weight, biceps and back and hammies, I can do the pushup tracks from my toes the entire way through now and I’m working on my triceps from my toes.  I want to get stronger so I can do chin ups.  I benched over 30KG’s with Michelle last week which I was chuffed about.

 

Okay enough about that, I like to think I’m more hardcore than I am and the only ones who care are my gym friends who think they are equally as hardcore so we live in our own little hardcore or so we think bubble lol.

So I’ve been talking to Bren over FB msgr, yeah I know none of your approve and most of you ignore the fact that I bring him up, like I care lol.  I can’t get away from him.  We get too close and fight and then we don’t speak for months.  I’ve done it when I’ve been with Paul, Geard and now single as well and there’s just no way I can escape him.  Most of you don’t get that 95% of our friendship has been just friendship.  Yes, we harmlessly flirt, but that’s our personalities.  We stir each other and push each other to the boundaries.  The only time we’ve fucked stuff up and got hurt was when we were "together".  We weren’t meant to be romantically together and we got mixed up in chemistry.  I don’t miss that part at all.  We have insane sexual chemistry but not the rest.

I missed his mind.  He’s so like me it’s not even funny.  I mean god, we talked for months on facebook via status’ and nothing else and no one else even picked up on anything.  We can be in a room with 10 other people and we have our own conversations that others don’t understand or can’t keep up.  I laugh at things that only he gets and he understands things the same as me.  I’m more observant but he remembers more.  I’ve just never fitted so well with someone’s personality and that’s the only way I can explain it.  I know he’s never far away from me, the little things just don’t seem relevant to us, petty fights etc, we need our space to get over them, and while I miss him in these lonely months, I’m not upset that I’ve lost him, because I haven’t.  He’s still there, just like I am.

Yes it sounds like I’m in love with him.  I LOVE him sure, I always have.  But he just means that much to me.  I don’t want to be with him and I’m happy that he’s happy with Sam, despite the looks she gives me at work.  We’re not talking much and it’s only on facebook.  We can’t hang out and we both are aware of that.  This is better than nothing.

 

Wow long entry.  Nighttt.