Monday.

Omg today at work was horrible.

Women’s boot sales = hell.  The tv was spammed with ads last night while we were watching Underbelly (which was awesome btw.) so I knew today was going to be hell.

I spent like 3 hours just circling the store, picking up boots and all the stuffing from inside them where people had just tossed them, or left them lying on the floor for people to trip over.  Women are terrible freaking shoppers.  Older women.  Men are considerate, Girls are but not guys.  Women though, uugh.  Assholes.  We did like $10, 400 though which is a big day for only the two of us on.  The store’s a write-off though.

I’ve been going through something wierd lately, I’m not really sure what but I seem to be almost passed it.  I just felt lonely and empty.  It was half that feeling that something was wrong with Geard, even though he was denying it.  I talked to him about it but then it got worse and I ended up bawling for the first time in months and months.  He reassured me though and was very patient with me, I feel more confident about us now.

I just kinda feel like I’m alone.  Like, I know I’m not but… I dunno, I’m wierd!

I want a job so I can get a house with Geard, build something up for myself!!  Feel like I’m making accomplishments in life.

I had a boring weekend.  I had work Saturday.  Sunday night I went out to Geard’s, as he had Ella.  We went to bed pretty much just after her as we were both buggered.

Sunday I asked if Geard wanted to take Ella to the park with me.  I told him the day before that it was getting to me that I hadn’t had a break from the "work-home-work-home" cycle but it didn’t seem to sink in because he said he couldn’t be fucked.  Uugh.  So I went home and did my own thing for a few hours.

I gave Ella her Easter present.  She took a huge breath and then said "thanks Jade!" really quietly, then smiles real big and goes "PINK!" (The egg was pink… Of coarse!)

She’s so cute.  As I was leaving she ran out on the deck and was like "BYEEE JADE I LOVE YOU!!" Aw =].  I want one.  Nah, Really!  I actually cannot wait.

I want to go out and have some fun!!  I’m so bored with everything.  Maybe another effect of my random mood, not sure.

I thought I had more to write about but obviously I don’t.

I’m just going to rape Geard tonight if I can’t have my way with him, haha.  I’m sure he wouldn’t complain 😉

xx