hungover

Sorry if you couldn’t tell I’d been cooped up in the house by myself for a while when I wrote that last entry.  I’m not really that emo about it, I was just having a bad day and he pretty much takes the blame for everything bad in my life right now haha, it’s a good system.  Thank you all so much for your notes though, I’m always going to be smiling when my friends all back behind me and confirm what a cocksucker he really is.

I went out with Megs last night.  I don’t think I updated it on here but I was housesitting Michelle (our trainers) house with her when she went to Port Macquarie for her Iron Man and I’m moving in with her as soon as we find a decent place =] I told Mon I didn’t think moving out would be very good for her at the moment, basically just said that I didn’t think she was ready and I would feel like I was responsible for looking out for her which neither of us would want.  She’s on antidepressants now, I’m not really sure how much to believe because she was on them for 10 days and had to go back to Dr.  She told me he started her on a second type of antidepressant, but she told Meg that he just upped the current ones, it’s stuff like this that just keeps me questioning what’s really going on with her.

I can’t describe the kind of person that she is, honestly I would like nothing more than to cut her out of my life, which I can’t do because I see her twice a day at the gym so it doesn’t even work.  She’s not someone I could ever be close with because she refuses to open up about anything, she won’t make conversation with you, when we hang out she’ll sit on her phone and not pay any attention to us, some days she won’t even say hi or bye, she’ll walk straight past you and ignore you.  Those aren’t the kind of people I fight for.  If you can’t treat me with respect then I have none for you.

ANYWAYS off on a tangent there.  I went out with Megs last night, we went and drank at her friend’s place and then he drove us into town.  I don’t drink like ever anymore, and all we were drinking is shots, just because they’re easier.  Nick who took us in was working at the club he was making us double shots for really cheap.  I was very drunk.  Nothing exciting really to mention, danced around like idiots, fought off the losers trying to grab our asses because they think they can.  I msged little brother around 3AM because my feet were killing me, bribed him with my car so he’d come pick me up lol, not really he doesnt mind doing it, just a bonus he gets to drive it.  I passed out the whole way home, Codie had help me back into the house, laid in bed for 2 seconds, realised I needed to vomit, went to toilet and woke up feeling majorly ill this morning.

I made an amazing shake this morning, a banana, frozen raspberries, greek yoghurt, milk and two scoops of my honeycomb protein powder, omg yummm.  Made everything better 🙂

My face has been breaking out so bad lately.  I think it.s from too much fish oil.  I’ve downed it to just once a day instead of twice and that seems to have stopped it for now.  They’re horrible breakouts under my skin and I dig at them until I leave gigantic scabs on my face argh.  Never worn so much makeup in my life.  I’ve swapped from pro activ to clinique, I love the way my skin feels after I wash it, seems to be helping.

okay that’s me for now.  I have still been reading all your entries, I do at work between calls which is like two or three minutes at a time so I never get to note 🙁 xx