Huge entry on holiday and catchup!

Hey guys!  Sorry I’m so slack at updating.  It gets to the point where it’s been so long that the thought of updating is just daunting so I don’t.. Slack!!

Vanuatu

Vanuatu was amazing!!! Jacq (or desserae)’s wedding was so beautiful.  We waited on the beach for her, it was meant to rain but it was complete blue skies.  We could hear the warriors singing their wedding song, then she came out of the trees with her dad escorting her and the warriors all marching her up dressed in their traditional gear.  I’ve instantly got tears in my eyes the second I see Jacq, she looked so amazing in her dress, then as she gets closer I hear her sister say "she’s in tears already" and that was the end of me, I look at Jacq and she’s trying so hard not to cry lol.  

The whole thing was beautiful.  I’m so glad I got to be there.  Their passion and love, it just radiated around the whole scene.  I know those two will be together forever, I can’t explain it but anyone who was at that wedding would tell you the same.  You could see it in their eyes.  It was complete true love.

I do find it so bizarre how much I care for this girl sometimes.  I met her here, I read her because she had a crazy life, I’ve never known someone like her before.  The real reason that we got so close was because she went into hospital and she didn’t have internet access so she gave me her number instead so I could text her.  Even though we live a 2 hour plane flight and a 2 hour drive away, we’ve been through so much, she’s been there for me so much and she’s always accepted me.  I don’t even begin to try and understand what she’s been through, but I always listened which was all I could do really.

Her husband was the reason I met her in person, he arranged it as a suprise on her birthday, I didn’t even know the guy but that’s how much he cares about Jacq.  People look at me so funny when I said I was going to Vanuatu with a group of friends from Sydney for a wedding of a girl that I met online, but she probably knows more about me than most of my closest friends.

I’ve never really done anything like that before.  Soph, who is Jacq’s best friend who I’d only met twice for Jacq’s birthday and her engagement party, was the girl I stayed with.  I did spend a lot of the engagement party with her, but I didn’t know her well.  I had so much fun with her, I got along really with her, we didn’t have any dramas even though we were together 24/7 for 8 days.  I guess we’re both quite laid back people, so it was easy. 

One of the best days I had there was with Soph, Brian, Craig and Kirsty, we got a taxi driver to take us to Blue Lagoon, Turtle Bay and the Cascades.  Blue Lagoon was perfect, actually, a picture says it all;

Brian can’t swim so he wouldn’t get in and Kirsty wouldn’t get in either, but Craig Soph and I spend a good hour in there it was AMAZING.

We paid one of the kids there who was probably only 10 5000 Vatu ($5) to climb up a 15-20ft coconut tree so we could get a fresh coconut.  Our taxi driver pulls a machete out of the back of his car (wtf!) and slices 3 different types of coconut so we can drink and eat them to taste the difference.  I’ve never had fresh coconut milk before, it’s like, fizzy but kind of sweet too.  I liked it but I couldn’t have too much.

Then we went to Turtle Bay, we saw tiny little turtles

and fed a GIGANTIC 60 year old turtle

We had an amazing lunch there of Lobster Mornay for only $30

These psycho HUGE crabs climb freakin trees and eat coconuts.. wtf!?

Then we went to the Cascades.  It was 1000 Vatu to get in, or $10, and they told us we could swim anywhere.  You literally walked through the falls to get to the top.  I’m so upset but my camera died before we got there and I was the only one there with a waterproof camera.

See how there’s ropes all the way up??  That’s where you walked up through it!

Vanuatu honestly wasn’t what I expected it to be, it was very run down, the town itself was very dirty.  It’s hard to describe, but the buildings are old and crumbly, the roads are pretty much non existant.  The resorts there are amazing, well ours was and Jacq and Mark’s was, I didn’t like the others as much, just because it was too much like home, it wasn’t beachy and relaxing sort’ve, it was just a hotel room.  The houses that the locals live in are literally like tarps and small sheds.  The people are the nicest people I’ve ever met.  It makes you happy just being there, they honestly have the best outlook ever.

You can see why too, they don’t sweat the bullshit, the technology, the luxuries, the expenses that we have.  You visit there and just wonder why we do it to ourselves, and for what???  For a touch screen phone and electric everything???  That’s not the way to be. 

This was where Soph and I stayed, at Breakas;

Our shower had no roof, we literally showered under the palm trees!

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Our view!  Literally on the sand on the beach 🙂

That’s the bar, the pool table, lit IN THE FREAKIN SAND YO!

The bar, which btw is next to the infinite pool 🙂

Sippin cocktails outta coconuts!!

This was our transport everywhere.. Seedy ass run down "buses" lol.

There’s no road rules in vanuatu.  They can drink drive, we squeezed 4 people into the back of a prius, I had to sit on Soph’s lap, I was practically doubled over cause there was no room, perfectly legal!!!  Guys were hanging off buses, off the back of utes n shiz, was crazy!

It fully changed my perspective on a lot of things.  I’m so glad I went.  I’m a lot happier for doing it.

I have so many more photos, most of you are on my facebook though so you can see them there.  Leave me a note if you wanna add 🙂

It was the most amazing experience and I went with the most amazing people ever.  I miss Jacq and Soph so much already, I wish I wasn’t so far away 🙁

 

So in other news…. IM GOING TO AMERICA IN LESS THAN A MONTH!  Woot.

Very crazy, very last minute!  I’m going with Lara from work.  I’ve known Lara since high school, she went to the same school as my old bestie.  We haven’t been close in years but ended up on the same team at Voda, random!  She was meant to be going with Mark but he dogged her at the last second and I was more than happy to step in!  We’re going to LA for 4 days, San Fran for 4, Vegas for 4 and New York for 5.  I’m SO excited.  This is something I’ve always wanted to do and the chance literally dropped in my lap!

 

So on the Brendon front.  He rocked up at the airport the day I went to Vanuatu.  He kissed me goodbye.  He told me while I was away how much he missed me.  He went a bit quiet for a while but I just didn’t contact him because I wasn’t dealing with his bullshit.  He told me he didn’t know where we stood that’s why he was quiet.  I told him as far as I was aware we didn’t stand anywhere.  No reply.  I get home and he starts talking to me like normal, flirting, protective, the usual.  He tells me he’s been in a horrible mood lately, mostly because I’m not around.  He then repeats this a couple of days later saying "I struggle without you" just out of no where.  I asked when he was coming to see me, he says soon, whatevs.  I stop replying cause I’m over his shit, saying what he does but then not coming near me cause he’ll get in trouble.  Then I get a msg from Julie, he’s in a relationship with Sam.  Wtf?  Don’t get me wrong, I’m not upset because he’s with her again, I always told him I’d support him in whatever he did because ultimately I just wanted him to be happy.  But the fact that he didn’t even consider a conversation or even a TEXT before he advertises his new girlfriend on fb?!  Nuh.  I’m done.

He texts me to check the water and I tell him to leave me alone from now on, there’s nothing left.  I’m not mad at him, I don’t have the energy to be mad at him.  I’m honestly just done with him.  This time is different though, I feel like I have closure now.  I’ve been "done" with him before, but the difference being I’ve been so upset and regretful about it.  I feel good about this, I feel like I’m moving on.

 

Okay I bet no one lasted this long haha.  That is it from me.  I’m so exhausted and I have had a mass headache all day, I’m going to take some serious painkillers and pass out!!