Eminem and Fail. Pics!

It’s been a while.  I don’t have tooo much to report on.

I went to Melbs last week to see Eminem and Lara (not in that order lol)  It was so good to see Lara, I wish I could’ve stayed for longer just to spend more time with her.  I miss her 🙁  Boo.

Eminem was AMAZING!  Instead of picking a few of his most popular songs he did mixes, a verse and chorus so he could sing ALL OF THEM.  Woo.  Lara isn’t into him as much as I am, I was singing word for word everything, I think she was a little scared lol.  That man’s songs got me through a lot of crap in the past.

We met up with Sammi who I work with at Voda and have got very close with since Lara has left, and her little sister Maddy as well before we went inside.  We all had standing tickets, as you don’t go to an Eminem concert to sit up in the grandstand.  We started right up the front fighting our way to the barrier.  It was legit like getting through a brick wall, instead of people trying to push through, they were insulting people until they left.  I saw fights start with girls, guys, racial slurs, someone spat in someone elses hair, no lie.  Then when Lil Wayne came on we couldn’t see the stage or the screens either, just one of them, and only if no one was moving, which… cmon!  Lara was busting to go to the loo and I said that I’d come with because she was never going to find us again.

People wouldn’t even let us through to get out, and suprisingly, it was thicker towards the middle of the crowd than down the front :S  I stood up the back waiting for Lara and realised I could see and hear way better than if I was squeezed down there, so we stayed there right at the back.  Usually I would be in the front row to get the atmosphere but the entire stadium was screaming, I lost my voice!

Definitely something I will not forget.

I almost hooked up with Bren again.  FAIL JADE, FAIL.  On Friday I got free tickets to go see the cricket with a couple of the boys from my team.  Vodafone are the major sponsor for the cricket (in case anyone was wondering lol, we’re media whores) and we got rewarded with free tickets, well the top sellers did who are into cricket.  Anyways Bren was working there with work for the McGrath Foundation collecting coins etc. 

He came and sat with us in his lunch break then when he was done he took us up to his silver ticket seats where the rest of Voda were (we only had general admission but we all got into silver ticketed seats where all the team leaders were when it started raining.)  It got rained out early and he said he’d take me to his car so I didn’t get wet.  FAIL JADE.  Anywho we were good, just sat there and were talking about everything, as we normally do.  It just got complicated when I hugged him when I left.  He kissed my forehead and tucked his head into the nape of my neck.  ARGH. 

I sat my head on my shoulder and just breathed him in, allowed myself to let go for a moment what I’ve been fighting for months.  He ran his hand up my cheek and his breathing was shakey.  He dropped his hand into mine and said how he missed just being able to sit around and talk shit like we do.  He missed me.  That we’re both shit people for how bad we screw over others for our own selfish needs.  He said, it’s okay, you can look at me (I was stroking the back of his neck and fixing my gaze on that)  I giggled and said no I can’t.  That would finish me.

We pulled apart and said our goodbyes before one of us fucked up again.  I got out of the car before we made contact again and got into mine.

How am I so powerless with this guy?!  I’m so in control of these things, except him.  That’s why I’m always so into him, he knows I’m a control freak and that he completely controls me and it gets him off so bad.  Who am I kidding, it gets me off too.

I thought I’d feel shit leaving him, like I always do.  It actually didn’t really hurt, maybe I am making progress?  Maybe I just know he’s not that far away from me. 

I got this when I left;

"Every time I see you it’s like I never left.  I miss you more than I can ever tell you"

ARGH.  Damn… Just damn.

 

I suck.  So, so bad.

 

PICS?

This is where we stood, how good is it 🙂 Before he came on.

This was the most amazing thing I’ve ever seen.  When he was singing "Lighters"  He told everyone to hold their lighters in the air.  I’m so glad we were up the back to see it.  You can’t even see in the stands here!

Just showing how gigantic my new protein powder was lol.

Work Xmas party

I LOVE this dress.  It’s so flattering.  The shoes are from Las Vegas and I’ve never had SO many people compliment on my shoes before.  They’re super comfy too.  Win.

This is my mum and dad.  This is how they watch TV most nights lol.  We have a 3 seater lounge and they squeeze into an armchair.  My dog is jealous of mum being on dad so she needs to plonk on top.  Mum is giving me the look of death, she hates her pic being taken lol but I love this pic.