All I need is a little of the good life (pics)

I’m loving Three Days Grace’s new album =]

I haven’t updated in a while.  I was right about something not being right with Geard.. We had a pretty rough fortnight.  I finally got him to spill to which he exploded saying he was depressed and down and didn’t know if he wanted to be with me.  I was pretty miserable with the combination of being sick and my boyfriend not wanted anything to do with me.

So last Tuesday I decided I was going to spend forever being sad over Geard, I went out with Molly and met a heap of awesome people.  We went to a bar where her friend works, then we went and saw some more of her mates (she’s a lot like me in the way that she prefers guy over girlfriends).  I didn’t get home until after midnight with work the next morning and for once I wasn’t sad about Geard and I realised that it wasn’t the end of the world if we ended.

He came over the next night and we talked a lot.  We also had sex and fell asleep in each others arms.  Well he did.  I spent half the night awake, not being able to turn my head off, wondering if I’d done the right thing, wondering why it didn’t feel right.  He left the next morning while I was in the shower, didn’t even say bye so I figured he was thinking the same thing.

That night I went out with Mol and the boys, we went to Onba (same bar as tuesday night) Mat was bartending again and he made us cocktails.  When I was right to drive I took us all down for a maccas mission and then dropped everyone home.

Geard was texting me that night, he said he really wants to work things out.  I could tell he was very jealous of me being out as I haven’t been a social person in soo long!  It was nice of him to finally be making an effort with me. 

Another late night with only a few hours sleep!

The next night Mol came and picked me up, we dropped her big brother off with the boys and we missioned around town waiting to pick up her little brother from work.  We took him home, swapped to my car (as we wanted doof doof music lol, I have a sub) went and found rockstars to keep us going and then headed to the boys place.  There was about 6 of them there I think.  We all laid on the bed and watched movies until about 4am and then we went home, via dropping a few of the boys home.

I’ve been having so much fun, but it did come at a price, as I hadn’t seen Geard since things were still wierd, and with me out being social, it was upsetting him.

Saturday night he lost it as I was getting ready to go hit the town with Mol and the boys.  He got the most upset I’ve ever seen him.  It was because I told him I’d be staying at Will’s place in town, as we were all drinking, and a cab ride home to my place is about $80+.  No thanks!  I went to primary school with Will so we kinda go wayyyy back.  But Geard wasn’t having any of it and I wasn’t really keen on him informing me what I could and couldn’t do suddenly.  I managed to calm him down and in the end came to the conclusion that he’d just come pick me up from town when I was done.

I had a reasonable night out and msged Geard to come pick me up pretty early, about 2 I think.  It was soo good to see him after all the drama of the fortnight, we talked in bed and things just felt so good, I felt so comfortable and it felt right.  I love him.  And I’m not bailing just because times got hard, relationships are hard sometimes.

Things have been pretty good since then =] Actually things have been awesome.  I’m so in love with Geard and something just seems so perfect now.  Everything is open and just, easy! 

I’ve also joined a great group of friends, which i’ve so missed being a part of!  Finally getting a part of my social life back!!  Lots of plans and things to do!

Haha speaking of, next weekend we’re all going up to a BnS ball.  I know I know, everyone I mention this to laughs at me because "i’m not a rural" but I am at heart.  But Geard and Bren are taking their utes up, i’m going with Mol and Lanny K, the other boys (Will, Harold, Mick and probably a few others) and taking a car up, and I think Mol’s ex Maz is following us up to.  So we’re taking a rather large convoy up with us, going to get our country on and get wasted and have an awesome time!  Going to be prooooo!

Bren and Geard aren’t coming to Nickelback anymore.  Just Julie and I.  We’re still going to have an awesome time.  Geard said last night maybe he should just come too, but I think it’d be awkward with the three of us, he gets bored hanging out with just Julie and I, plus we’re planning to go nuts on shopping and going out etc.. So dunno whats’ the go there.  I don’t really care if I have to go by myself cause it’s NICKELBACK hahaha. 

Also the Hilltop concert at the end of this month with Julie for her bday YAY!

In summary, everything is pretty awesome!  Going to tea and the movies with Geard, Bren and Anna tonight, shopping with Jade tomorrow, Onba with Mol and the boys tomorrow night, out with Geard and possibly others on Friday night.  Hehe =]

Here’s some posing from me before I went out Saturday night ;]