My day on the 31st. of 2023

I have been thinking about how the whole year went by. You are a lot older and getting sicker and sicker every day. You don’t notice it until you feel it. So no I’m not happy for another year. What I’m happy about is that I’m still here with my loved ones, my husband my mom/ cat, and my dog. I was thinking of the old times good and bad and that makes me sad cuz I wish I could change some things, bad times I want to forget and the good ones remember and smile and do better for myself.  I argued with my husband about him not telling me his plans or asking me if I wanted to be there when he made plans he wanted me to be there but when I get upset,  is that he didn’t ask me first, I want this new year to be better not have depression/pain/suicidal thoughts/nightmares and have a positive outcome in the future. I want to be better for myself and others. Today I made tamales with my husband, they came out ok… it’s the first time so? But tomorrow is New Year’s and I’m not excited at all !! but I’m happy that I’m still around. I want this year to be better for all of us. God has been there for me since I was born and still is. I thank him for everything he’s done for me and my family. Amen and Good nite