My day 8th evening

I’ve been up since 3:10 am. now is 9:32 pm I woke up with nightmares as usual. My day was ok. I made beans chicken mole a Hispanic dish made with natural herbs. I was thinking about cutting my wrist and fighting my demons, but my new friend stopped me [my dog.] My husband was home and I was happy about it. I want my husband home all the time. I feel safe. When I hear the voices I pretend not to think about it. I think I have an angel with me all the time and I think God loves me. I can feel his love cuz I love others. it’s hard to live like this but little things make your day and you think positively about everything. I’m glad that I’m still here despite what I’m going through. it’s almost time to go to bed. I hope I can sleep and not think about anything negative. I get scared of going to sleep and it happens every night. But I have to sleep. Please God bless my dreams and my families and friends. Make me strong for what is coming in my dreams do not let my ex beat me up and if he does, make me strong that all I’m asking.. good nite