The Biggest Waves

dear spydr…

i love you. i miss you. this life is awful without you in it. i miss you so much i ache, my whole body aches for you.

mom’s being really supportive. wenda thinks i’m crazy. i take it you didn’t tell her much. i didn’t either, it’s okay. i didn’t want her to question you about us, not that i think she would but…not that i think she wouldn’t, either. it doesn’t matter. we know.

last night, i watched the video. i’m working on a big letter for you. i’ll post it soon. it’s what made me think to start this blog. this is easier. writing it down is easier.

i talked to wenda at some length today. oh, spydr, we miss you so so much! you and i were one thing, but this little family of ours, the three of us and Victoria, was so special. we love you so much. she doesn’t know yet. how do we tell her this?

i’m so tired, babe. thanks for being there for me. you never let me down. not when you were here…and not now, either. never ever. i love you.

lolak

…sugarz