running on e

i am officially (and FINALLY) done with school.  i will have a degree in my hands by month end and my graduation is march 5th.

also, i’ve moved out of my parent’s house – hopefully for the last time.

i should be ecstatic.  i should be unable to stop smiling.  yet, somehow, i can’t bring myself to give a damn about any of it.  i should feel full: happy to the point of overflowing.  but i don’t.  i just feel empty and alone.  what good is success and happiness when there is no one to share it with?

clearly, i’m just being my typical, cynical self.  why can’t i ever seem to outgrow this adolescent angst?

i am tired of being alone.  won’t anyone ever come and find me?