08/06/2009

i’ve decided that i need to re-evaluate my friendships with those that i thought were closest to me.

apparently, i am the only person in the world who is capable of being in a relationship AND having friends.  i get so annoyed when i think about how kristina gave me so much shit when i was dating scott.  she was constantly annoyed at me for spending time with him, yet i LIVED WITH HER.  she never failed to remind me that she was "supposed to be my best friend."  her feelings of resentment towards me were tangible.

i haven’t seen or spoken to her in almost 2 weeks.  i texted her and called her a few times at the beginning of last week, but she never responded or called me back.  the one day that we were supposed to hang out, she bailed on me to go out to dinner with dan, her boyfriend.

danielle has left me, too. 

i am happy for them both.  and i lke both of their significant others very much.  but why are they allowed to be hypocrites?  why is it ok for them to ditch me when i got a bag of shit for being in love?

maybe i’m just bitter, but seriously, fuck my friends right now.  fuck them all.  as far as i’m concerned, i don’t even HAVE any friends, because friends actually TALK TO ONE ANOTHER.

fuck everything.  i am so PISSED OFF AT LIFE right now.

i have an insatiable urge to run – run far and fast, because really…who would ever even know i was gone?