The big 18

Ever felt like everyone around you just totally forgot that you existed?

That question just popped into my brain and since I hadn’t been on in a while I wanted to jump on and ask everyone how you guys are doing.

I wish we could exchange emails and numbers! A fair few of you I would love to chat with every day without having to depend on OD.

You know, when I first got my OD I read it on everyone else’s page as OD and I was like, "Okay, so this is a site where EVERYONE does some type of drug? How on earth did I manage to find this?" It was awesome.

Anyway, on Friday, September 4th I, Alyssa Marie Last name will be 18 years old. Finally.I wish I could have an overly large gathering like I did when I was turning 15,16,and 17. Those were good parties. But with this effing economy shot to hades and my parents struggling financially, we can’t throw me some big hoorah. Part of me thinks my mother just doesn’t care anymore. I mean, she probably does, and I know they are both pretty stressed out, but come on! Its like the fun is gone now. I dunno…

I miss you guys! I should definitely write more. It’s just that school has started and I’m trying my hardest to keep my grades up and take some stress from my parents. I want to be good in school so they don’t have to bother themselves with worrying about my grades. They have more than enough on their brains without that pressure.

Ugh. Sometimes life is just a pain in the exit…