1/29/22: Snowed in

There was a big storm today, so all campus activities were canceled. This was hard for me because I fill my weekends with work, but it was canceled. I do not like having a lot of free time because I get lonely and sad. I went out in the snow earlier with some girls from my dorm and I have been in my room alone ever since. I texted a few girls on my floor to hang out, but everyone is busy or not responding. I like being alone, but I get really sad when I see other people having fun and posting on social media. It just reminds me that people are having fun with their friends while I don’t have many friends. I tried to stay busy by playing video games and binge-watching Netflix, but that only takes up so much time. I did my laundry, cleaned my dorm and did my Feb calendar.

I have been really stressed lately because I have been trying to find a house off-campus and have been having no luck. If you have read previous posts then you know that I have had one housing situation fall through. I recently had another one too. A girl and I had plans to see her house and sign a lease but then she said her roommates currently are not moving next year. When I read the message my heart sank. Since then I have reached out to countless people, posted on the university Facebook and put up flyers on campus. I don’t want to live on campus anymore because the dorms are so depressing and small. I think being in a house in my own room will make school feel more “homey”. I am worried that I will not find anyone and that I will have to get a single dorm, which I REALLY don’t want. My mom says to think positively, but it is sooooo hard.

-The struggling college freshman