1/24/22: Leaving again

Today has been and is going to be a really hard day. I am currently on the train back to school from home. It was so hard saying goodbye to my parents, boyfriend, and dog. I am trying not to cry as I type this post. I hate saying goodbye, it just sucks. I am really going to miss everyone. I don’t like being at college far away because I feel so alone. I wish I could go to school closer to home, but I can’t. I know I will be okay in a few days after I get settled again, but that doesn’t make it any easier right now. I just want to cuddle up next to my boyfriend in my bed at home. I feel so lonely and sad. I hate being alone. Whenever I say that people are like, “Oh you’re not alone, you have friends and your sports team”. But honestly, my sports team doesn’t always provide good company when I need it and I don’t have many friends to keep me company.  wish I could just make some friends and be happy.

-The struggling freshman