1/17/22: Feeling hopeful

Today was a weird day. I worked, went to a job interview, had swim practice then had a team dinner. I have been trying to connect with my teammates more, so I asked a girl if she needed a ride to the dinner and she said yes. It was nice to talk to her for a bit in the car and I think (hopefully) we are a little bit closer and more friendly. I did not invite the other freshman to ride with us because they always leave me out and are not very nice. They did not even ask for a ride anyways… I decided I am done trying to be friends with them. I am going to be friendly and that is it. I have wasted so much time and energy on these mean girls. I sometimes even feel bad for them… one girl cannot even compete this year due to very bad grades. Maybe they are not nice to me because they are jealous of my swimming and good grades. I don’t know, but I am trying to forget about them.

The second semester starts tomorrow and I am excited to get back to a regular routine. Having no schedule is fun, but is not good or healthy for me. I need to have a timeline in order to stay organized and on top of my work. I am taking 6 classes and almost all of them are related to my major. I hope they are interesting. Last semester I had all Gen-Eds so it will be nice to have more interesting classes.

Overall, I am proud of how I am doing and feeling after being back to school alone for almost a week. Today was a good and productive day and I hope tomorrow is too!

-The struggling college freshman