I WANT SPRING ………….NOW.!!!!!!!!!

I long for the feeling of the warm sun on my face, and the gentle spring breeze running through my hair. I need to feel warm again. I m so tired of being cold and the dreaary weather that old man winter brings with him. I need the SUN…lol

Right now, I am home sick with a horrible cold and feel like garbage.

Things with my son M who has had a lot of problems in the past have been going pretty well. He is a little more open and honest with us, calling us when he will be late, calling when he gets somewhere and when he leaves to go somewhere else. His birthday was on Feb 5 and that day I had a little talk with him. I tried a new tactic, a new way of trying to get through to him. I told him my belief that we are all here for a reason, we have a job that must get done, a purpose to our existence, there is a rhyme and reason even if we don’t know what it is. I told him that he needs to change the way he  perceives things around him. He looks at himself as a follower, yet his friends all come to him with their problems,  they look to him to be the one to make the plans (good, bad or just plain stupid), so I told him that maybe he was more a leader than a follower and he should think and act like one. He has the power to make changes for good and have his friends follow his exmple,  so he should. I also told him that his friend that survived the car crash obviously had not fulfilled his purpose, his dedstiny…he tried to kill himself twice and it didn’t work. The world/universe still has a need of him here…it just isn’t his time. I asked him to think about his very good friend who died. I told him that maybe his purpose was done. That maybe his purpose was to lead his friends (esp M) to this point in there lives when they would have to make choices. I asked him to think about the fact that maybe he (my son) had to go through all this in order to come out of it a better stronger person. And that maybe down the road there will be someone who comes into his life who needs his help, and if he hadn’t gone through this, he wouldn’t be able to help that person. I hope he heard me….I believe on some level he did as soon after that talk, he started to change his attitude a little.  After the talk with him, my daughters friend from her soccer team came over and handed me a birthday card she had made for him, and she really doesn’t know him well, she did it out of the pure goodness of her heart and her love for my daughter…her friend. When I handed it to him, I asked him to think about all the people who care about him and love him. I reminded him that he was loved by many people and that others care about him, just because. I think he heard…finally.

Daughter’s birthday is tomorrow…she will be 13. I will now have 4 teenagers…OMG..help me!!!!!

Other son turns 15 on the 23rd…..then all birthdays (kids) are done until June when the older one turns 19.

And now, Back to bed for another nap….and it’s only 10:25.

Take care all.

This picture reminds me that spring is on the way. And the other day, I did see a beautiful red cardinal (I think it was a cardinal) fly by my car on my way to work