“on Christ the solid rock i stand…

“…all other ground is sinking sand.”

i think i’ve crossed a threshhold somewhere…life is always, like, way serious and stuff, now. i’ve consistently worked forty hours a week (or some slight variation thereof) since the beginning of may and trying to exist as a college-kid in a 9-to-5 workworld really doesn’t allow for simple compatiblity with others of the same college-ing nature.

…which is probably why most of my friends are the married, young workforce type folks, now.

they’re still kids to some stretch, too, but what…a breath of fresh air…where there’s life and legitimate things to contend with and not a vain grasping for some sort of useless drama to feed the monotonous lull and keep it from eating out your EYES…

it was amazing the strategy we had to concoct the other night as we intended to have a “fun night” of “hanging out.” ever-faithful to the theme of the rest of the summer of ’05, our fun consists of “i’m-so-fantastically-busy-but-at-
least-we-can-run-errands-TOGETHER!” which actually did not turn out as disdainful as i may have conveyed it. all these new people are real people with jobs and lives and husbands and wives and bills to pay, diamond rings to clean, checks to deposit and stomachs to fill. our lives together are no longer an isolated quest for constant entertainment and though i’m still humoured by my sudden migration into adulthood busy-ness, i really really really appreciate all of this. to see justin and abbey argue about their checks, to be shooed away as the boys talked about whatever boy things they talk about, to see chris staring off into some other dimension because he was just…tired. he’s tired, man, life’s insane and he works hard. yanno?

it’s all so organic…am i freak for thinking it’s all so wonderful…?

(i almost regret not going boating on sunday…but the shirt and pants i got ARE pretty cool…)

we do need to just get away, though. all of us that have been hauling so much butt this summer…sometime when we can summon the strength, i think we need to take a daytrip to hannibal or pierre marquette or something. just to go and be and breathe.

this has been a most intense and trying summer, but i belive i’ve acquired what i needed to from it, (ohh…and THEN some…) and grew into several of the little folds and corners of myself that i didn’t know existed. i’ve had a LOT of fun working like mad and being pleasantly exhausted by getting things DONE…

this has been, inarguably, the fullest, most fulfilling summer that could be labeled the “best” one, in a sort of tough, bittersweet way. through all the stuff that frustrated and hurt like mad, we got to see more clearly how good God indeed is and i know that the wisdom born from seeing our Lord through the bad times even trumps the awesome happiness that was brought by the good.

and it is so amazing to talk about my life in terms of a “we.” there are so many people around right now that it’s almost impossible to isolate any battles that i’ve fought all on my own.

…i believe.