::Crumbly Bits

The earthy stench of Hallow’s Eve penetrates through the cracks in the wall. I’m watching the sun set, knowing this is the last nice day of the year. After this the wind turns to icy claws and the branches are bony and bare. The thunder and lightning of summer passes over to grey and gloom. November makes me feel lonely. I’m glaring at it, and hissing it to get back in its place, and wait its turn.

It could be worse.

I’m growing my beard again. I forget why I shaved it this spring, but I’m tired of schlepping away at my cheeks and chin in the shower every morning. Waste of money, waste of my time. The only trouble is that — no matter how fast your chin grows hair — when you first grow it out, there’s always a week or two where no matter what, you look like a homeless guy. Seriously. I could put on a suit and tie (if I owned either one) and I would still get The Look from all the lawyers and accountants who work on other floors in my building.

First world problems… I know.

This place is falling apart at the seams. Error messages, absent leadership. I don’t know what to do. I’ve been here since April 2000, on and off. When I started, "blog" was not a word. Hell, the Internet itself was just a baby. I’m just worried that some web-based toilet is going to flush and this place is going to be gone, and take you all with it. Even though I don’t write as much as I ought…. I’d be heartbroken. It’s hard enough for me to see the three-quarters of my bookmarks list that has just wittered away — stories unfinished. Going elsewhere doesn’t really seem like an option, unless I can take you all with me. Maybe I could simulpost somewhere. Just in case. Any of you do that?

Now this… this is a little bit more of a problem.

I have more to say, but it’s late. I’m feeling a little stupid. Slap-happy. Back to the regularly scheduled Awesome next time. Possible topics:

– Trilogies. (Paper, not film.)
– Polyamory.
– Drugs and whether or not I miss them.
– Weird dreams.
– Nerdy roleplaying shit.
– The novel I may never end up writing.
– The cancer I probably don’t have.
– Woe is me, I’m lonely and horny and disconnected. (Yeah, maybe we’ll skip this . Haven’t I done it a few times already?)

Add something to the list if you want. Maybe I’ll like it better than what I’ve got above and push it to the top of my list. Then you can beam at yourself in the mirror and look for a halo, because you’ll be my Muse for a Day. Get this, I don’t even require a toga.

One last thing: on the off-hand chance that 1) you know what Gangnam Style is; and 2) You love the movie "Big Trouble in Little China" as much as I do, click here. Also, I love you.

Avalon

October 26, 2012

I want to hear about polyamory and nerd stuff. That’s my request. You know, there are a couple of OD groups on Facebook where people stay connected during outages; if you’re on Facebook and want an invite, let me know. Also, there’s an OD “lifeboat” site at http://www.diaryconfidential.com. Supposedly, if OD goes down, the lifeboat site will provide a new diary site for everyone who signed up.It won’t be the same, but it’s something.

One Angry Dwarf

1. Everyone knows what Gangnam Style is. The video has literally hundreds of millions of views. 2. Big Trouble is rad. 3. I can’t watch YouTube at work so this will have to wait. 4. I still capitalize YouTube like a tool. Also, if polyamory has any direct relation to you and your current life, talk about that. So I can punch you in the face. WITH WORDS. <br> I mean, I know some people who are in healthy polyamorous relationships. I also know a metric fuckton of people who are in polyamorous relationships because they have a shitty monogamous one and misguidedly think adding more complicated interpersonal relationships will somehow improve their communication. HA. “The ship is sinking! What do we need? No, not more buckets! MORE PEOPLE AND SAME AMOUNT OF BUCKETS SO THEY CAN ALL FIGHT OVER THEM AND NOTHING GETS ACCOMPLISHED oh wait that doesn’t work at all and we’re drowning now?” In short: Don’t do it, it’s a TRAP. And if you do, I will totally LAUGH AT YOU WHEN YOUR MARRIAGE FAILS because that’s the kind of caring reader I am. I will never pass up an I-told-you-so, even in the midst of earth-shattering depression

synapse

October 27, 2012

Exclusive monogamy is designed to be a trap…that is not even a secret. Polyamory is a virtue; It’s not for everyone.

Rusted Armour

November 1, 2012

RYN: So true, sir. So true.

Phoenix Seraph

I live in constant dread of OD disappearing… *sad lil’ frown* But hey…it hasn’t happened yet, so we might as well all continue to enjoy it while we still can…and back up our diaries…daily… If OD does go under I don’t plan on going to a “blog” site, unless its a new one that has been started by follow ODers for homeless ODers. I’m sorry…I’ve tried LiveJournal (*gags*), WordPress, Blogger… Nope, nope, nope. I don’t want a “blog” anyways, damnit. I want a diary! Dear diary…my life sucks. It sucks bunnies. Bad bunny sucking life. No biscuits for you! There. Just like that. And I have that here on OD. *nods* I guess I’m lucky though…my bookmark list is very much alive and kickin’… Kicking my ass, perhaps, but still kickin’. And many of my friends on here are also connected to me via Facebook, so at least I don’t have to fear losing all the connections I’ve made here. Still…I will be heartbroken if this site ever goes down. It’s been my home and shelter and a very convenient place to hide the bodies too… *innocently rolls my eyes*

Sounds like a good list of things to write about… I would strongly suggest you write it all out. Plus. And you should start as soon as possible. *nods* And to help encourage this, I will add you to my bookmarks so that I can be sure and leave you pointless random notes along the way. Sounds like a plan, yes-no?? Glad you agree either way. By the way, thank you for your note and nice tomeet you. My name’s Annie! *waves*

The tyranny of winter. Ick. If you don’t write here, write somewhere. 🙂 *

November 8, 2012

RYN: Thank you for your notes. *smiles* Now writing something, damnit! I want to read more from you!! *chuckles & winks* Take good care.

November 9, 2012

RYN: Wow, that’s a seriously generous offer! Thank you so much. I’m going to see what the Apple store can do for me this weekend but I really appreciate that.