[day 243/day1] To Be Continued plus a New Start!

Wow, i cannot believe its been almost a year since we all started this. I remember sitting here so disgusted with myself that all i could do was exercise. Its common and very normal for people to lose their motivation and stop exercising. It happens all the time, check the statistics if you dont believe me. So yes. I am BACK! YAY! Im taking 20 hours this semester with 2 online courses, so it makes my time a little busy..plus they kicked a bartender out of the bar, and well, that means im working more. Im really excited about the new start. I want to do this right, and celebrate day 300! I know that i slacked for a month and a half but that doesnt mean i cant get back on the train. haha. I was told, that since ive been eating bad, then that should help me get over the plateu i was on for awhile. I could not stand to keep looking at 183..it was driving me crazy. I would see it gone for a week , and then the number would be right back.

Id really like to lie and say that i havent gained any of the 30 pounds i lost back, but then again i would be lying to myself and everyone else. This place ((my diary)) is where im suppose to be honest, and quit lying to myself and stop with the excuses. So yeah. Its depressing but i weighed and im sitting at 193…i weighed just awhile ago and its 3am so i may be a little less, but there is no room for lies and excuses here. 10 pounds! YUCK. I know why too. I cant say "i dont know how it happened"  because i do. I quit exercising and ate whatever i wanted for almost 2 months. WELL NO WONDER I GAINED! I havent worked out once. I know bad me. Ive felt great, and fat. But the hype isnt true, fat people ARE NOT happy people. trust me, i know. Im ready to make my change. I want to make my new years resolution that i made 243 days ago…which was to be at my semi-goal weight that i was when i met my boyfriend, which was 165. It looks to me like i have 28 pounds to lose in 3 months. So I will make a sensible goal of 2-3 pounds per week..possibly 10 pounds per month..or even 5 pounds. Its going to take hard work and dedication.

If being thin was easy, then everyone would be thin and not one person would be overweight. Well unfortunatly, that isnt the case. Its takes hard work, dedication, and disicipline. Im tired of food controlling me. From this day on, I AM IN CONTROL. I have to bartend tomorrow night (actually tonight since it is in the AM) so i may not be able to write, but i will try. Im thinking about all of you favs..and hopefully youre thinking about me=)

DO it right and be good!