Happy Times… Sad Times

A whole lot has happened again. And as usual with the way my mind is I’ve forgoten a lot of stuff. I did a lot of shopping for clothes. I got a lot of stuff.

The Thursday night before my Birthday I was at work and I got a really bad migraine. I was so bad that I was throwing up. So that is how my birthday started off. At midnight everyone in training with me sang Happy Birthday. I wish I was feeling better to have enjoyed it. I called my mom to see if Brian and dad could come pick me up so I wouldn’t have to drive. They did. As Brian was driving he turned into the parking lot for Steak ‘N Shake. He said mom wanted a milkshake. Of course I was all like, no I just want to get home and try to sleep call dad and tell him to get it for her. But when he parked the car I ran inside to throw up and when I came out I realized I ran right past my parents and Harmony with the light up sign on the table saying “Nobody Loves You Except The Feldman Dynamic & Harmony Rodgers”. I always said I wanted a surprise party, I just wish is was when I wasn’t feeling like crap. Harmony drove all the way out to see me and made a card and brought a cake. I appoligized for just wanting to go home to try and sleep. That wasn’t how I planned on starting off my 23rd Birthday. I woke up still feeling a little out of it, but most of the migraine was gone. My mom was already at the hospital for her treatment, and I was upset thinking I wouldn’t get to see her since I had to be at work that night. So I realized what time it was and Brian and I rushed to the hospital to do the anual reienactment (can’t spell) of my birth. haha. I got a free box lunch of it. At work that night one of the guys ordered pizza and said it was a pizza party for my birthday. That was nice. I was wearing a skirt and Daniel, the hottie, when he came in he said I looked really pretty all dressed up and then he was like “sexy bitch”. haha. I really wish he didn’t have a girlfriend. I’m glad I hired him on as the photographer for Orlando Theatre Project this season, I’ll get to see him. Hopefully he’ll stick to his word and do it. It wasn’t the best of birthdays, but it wasn’t the worst. The next day my mom and I went shopping again. We didn’t get to spend much time together on my birthday so that was our mini celebration. That night I got together with Blair and we went to see a play at Valencia for Playwrights Round Table. Ryan was in it, I was hoping to get to see him after the show but he aparently left as soon as his show was done. When Blair and I got back to my place my mom said we should light the candles on the cake that Harmony got me. So we did that, my dad took some pictures. It was fun.

The next day I went with Brian down to Ft. Lauderdale to visit Mom-Mom and Pop-Pop. I haven’t seen them since last June. My dad was already down there. It was really sad seeing my grandma lying in her room in a hospital bed unable to talk or walk. And having a hospice nurse there made things even more upsetting. I figured I should go and visit her since I knew that would make her and my grandpa happy. When my dad said I was there, she opened her eyes and pulled me down to hug her. Even though she couldn’t smile, I knew she was happy cause her eyes got real wide and she just held my hand and staired at me. I was telling her all the things I’ve been up to. And my grandpa appoligized for forgetting my birthday and he asked the nurse if it would be ok if he took my dad, brother, and I out to dinner. It was good that he ate, cause aparently he hasn’t been eating very well since she been like that. I’m really glad I went down to visit them. I know it made my grandma day.

I had my last week of training at work. It was a very long, but still went kinda fast week. We didn’t do a whole lot cause we were told we finished everything. I’m still totally lost and not looking forward to going on the phone, but that’s just me. On Thursday we took the test. We needed to make a 75 or better to pass. We were only given to shots at the test. The rules were we could use our notes and the computer, but we could not use anyone else notes, or talk to anyone. Well, since Daniel and I were sitting in the far corner from the trainer, we had a little system going to help each other out. If I found an answer to something I let him know, and if he found an answer to something he let me know. Well he pushed submit on he test and got a 79, so I was like ok, good, I should have the same thing…right. Well, not really, I got a 76. Wow! I still passed though by one point. So we must have missed one question in there, but still I was so happy to have passed. 6 people failed the 1st time. The trainer let 3 of us leave without clocking out to go and get food for our lunch break as long we brought him back something. So we did and then when we got back we clocked out for lunch. haha. Then we sat around for about an hour while they retook there test. Then we did somemore sitting around cause what more is there to do after you take the test. Oy. On Friday we had graduation. We all got certificates of completion. Yay. I’m a BEUC-Orange Rep. haha. Then we had a party were we ate a ton of food and just sat around for the rest of the night doing nothing. It’s always nice getting paid to do nothing. And being there with Daniel who is hot made it easy to stay around.

When I got home from work that night (this morning actually) Brian was already sleeping, and my mom said she needed to talk to me. She came into my room and shut the door. She asked me what my work schedule was like for the coming week and how work was. Then she said, I would be missing work on Monday night… Mom-Mom passed away around 12:30am. It like, even though I knew she didn’t have much longer, I still just kept thinking maybe she’ll hold on for a bit longer. I started crying cause I don’t know how my grandpa is going to take it. I know it’s going to be really hard for him, it was already hard for him when I visted last weekend. I feel so bad for him. My dad came in the room and he was crying. He hasn’t been doing to well either the past few weeks. I know I wouldn’t do to well if I lost my mom. Well, we are going to be heading down there tomorrow and the funeral is on Monday morning. I just keep hoping the best for Pop-Pop.

With everything upsetting going on I’m still looking forward to starting my internship on the 15th. I know I’m going to be super busy and that will be good in a way. And I’m excited to be moving out on my own.

Well, I’m gonna get to bed cause I have quite a next few days planned out.

Love,
StarBright16