Sheltered innocence…

The world is quiet as the moon dozes on in the pale sky… And the girl wonders what will ever become of the boy she once loved… The man she still loves… They were children in different parts of the world, yet their souls met and their thoughts became as one so long ago… And she wonders if the decisions she has thus far made with her life were wrong ones… If she should have waited for him to return… If she should have not given that which was so precious to herself to another man and cheapened it with his lust… If her heart still does beat in sync with the boy from long ago… She yearns for life to be simple again… For time to go back to the way it was… The slowness of the day… The sound of the birds and the water and the fireflies outside her window in the twilight… The country of her childhood calls to her… And she wishes with all her heart that she could return to the place she once loved… The city has deluded her once pure mind… The smog has infected her thinking till she is no longer that little girl from the marshland, but now the woman in the skyscrapers… And she hates herself for betraying her heritage in this way… For growing up and losing all of her innocence that was so carefully protected when she was young… People call her sheltered… They don’t know how much has changed… But she does… And it scares her sometimes…