She wants to be rich…

Jealousy is a really hard thing to control… People her age are living the dream life while she is living here… In an apartment… With no money and massive amounts of debt that they can’t pay… Is this her penance for not going to school? For trying to make her husband "bring home the bacon" too early in their marraige? Maybe she should have done something more meaningful… Something better with her life… Kept her job at the optical or something… But is second guessing oneself really any better? Does this make her somehow less of a person because she didn’t get married in Hawii and doesn’t own a house herself by now? Where is the happiness in simplicity? She wouldn’t be happy in a house because of all of the upkeep… She wouldn’t be happy in a house because of the wasted space… She absolutely abhores wasted space… And getting married in Hawii wouldn’t have been the same because no one in her life could afford going there…. But still, money is nice…

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January 7, 2010

ryn: *pushes all the snow in your direction* What ifs are a dangerous game but are terribly seductive.