..you can’t break that which isn’t yours..

didnt make it outside yesterday…ordered pizza and changed back into pjs..watched some french movie and fell asleep on the sofa halfway through it..

feeling slightly better today..although now i look like this…http://www.millionaireplayboy.com/mpb/wp-content/uploads/2009/08/seven_gpk_03.jpg

not pretty..but i will definitely make it into work tomorrow morning..

my mother is on some crazy shit right about now..says shes worth more dead than alive..i keep telling her that if she continues to bring up that topic..she will tempt me to get the baseball bat

 

so its day 3 of project ignore D…and im okay..letting it all sink in…

medic girl..thank you for the ass kicking notes..these are the same arguments i have with myself

what especially rings true is the following:

surely if hes the one, and he still has all these feelings for you he never processed he should sort those all out first before trying something else? how can you be sure that hes not just thinking the grass is greener.
how can you be sure that you dont just want something unattainable?
you’ll never know unless you leave it all alone and let him do some thinking and work for a change. [medic girl]
2/9/2011 5:56:30 AM

 

i cannot deny the above…the last sentence shall be my daily mantra..

funny..after reading that, i couldnt help but flashback to february of 2009..which was the first time he had brought up the possibility of meeting face to face in a very long time..i couldnt figure out why he was so gung-ho about it then..the answer fell into my lap a month later..he married her and neglected to tell me…and when i asked for an explanation, his response was.."i didnt want to lose your friendship"

*…cough..cough..bullshit..

snip..snip..go the puppet strings..

incredibly antsy..going to shop for work clothes…cook a big meal..and later i’ll do my hair and nails..throw in a french lesson while i’m under the dryer..

http://www.youtube.com/watch

 

*quick edit…

there was a crow in my living room just now..lol i had to chase it around the house..and coax it to fly back out..

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