..we kissy kiss in the rearview..

four days shy of my one month no smoking anniversary..have a full patch supply..gum is no longer necessary

my new hire has put in his 2 weeks notice..full-time graveyard shift..i should be pissed but what is throwing a hissy fit going to do to resolve things?

worked 13.45 hours today and i am officially ignoring my blackberry..i even went as far as putting an out of office autoreply..which is something i never do, unless i’m on an official vacation..i dont give a crap..fire me..

i plan on getting piss drunk tonight with this bottle of wine..

i am not tempted at all when i smell cigarettes..even with the mountains of stress that i’m buried under..if anything i eat..and it comforts me

chocolate chip cookie dough icecream is like prolonged foreplay..mmm

i like how the once sharp angles of my cheekbones are now rounding out little by little..i am busting out of my bras..and theres an extra wiggle when i shake my ass..not a bad thing at all..i have to suck it in just to zip up my size 0 jeans..luckily my coat covers the camel toe..lol

i feel like the geeky shy old forgotten me is getting the chance to live a little now..my nose is always in a book and i blush easily..

of course get me pissed and watch how easily that side runs to hide..mousy bitch!

a little scarey..no inbetween..the littlest things get me started..and the grand things keep me in smiling..or is it the opposite?

walking home..i went through the building behind the pizza place..the trees and bushes made it feel like i was in a forest if i ignored my left side..i am blabbering..i know it..where was i?

sigh, the wine is making my belly warm and all i want to do is crawl under the covers sandwiched between jacob and edward..in that order please..

already halfway done w/eclipse..come tomorrow i will pay my library fines and fill my head with new prince charmings

ps: f*ck you d..told you i was deleting our online porn stash..so why were you trying to log in a few days ago? eh?? stupid..

i believe this entry is done..yep..it sure as hell is