..they shadow box..and they paper chase..

headache…did absolutely nothing today..work emails constant..feel out of it..

dreamnt with d..vaguely recall the details..

i was searching for a place to live? and d gave me the address of an old friend of his..he was stuck in another country..and his home was basically empty..except for a cousin of his staying there..during the course of the dream, d was doing everything he could to make this happen for me..but other things would get in the way..i don’t know if he suceeded..the scene switched…i was forced to take a lie detector test..there was a questionaire..and i was crying like a baby because they didnt trust me (have no idea who "they" were)

there was much more to it…but it’s not coming back to me..

one solitary sentence from him today..i needed him..just a quick pickmeup..but he couldnt be there for me..for whatever reason..i guess?

feel let down..but at this point i know that he wouldn’t purposely hurt me..

just like sometimes i am too busy or stressed to give him what he needs..

eventually we will speak..and release..

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