..floating upon the surface for the birds..

struggled through my daily french lesson..

windy as hell out there..raining..at some point have to go get my color done..my greys can’t be contained for long..

yep..i have alot of them..started at the age of 17, the stress of being a single mom as a teen will do that to you..

my biological clock has suddenly started ticking..but realistically speaking, i doubt that i will ever have another child..

i’d love to have a son..name him after my dad..he’d inherit my green eyes, and his father’s height..of course, i’d have to find my imaginary husband first lol

back to reality…

emailed d yesterday..felt that i had to..like something was pulling me towards him..it wasn’t one of those "hope you are well"..blah blah blah emails..not a goodbye, have a good life..one either..just me stating why this situation is not working for me..

quite simply my point is this…when i care for someone..i will go above and beyond for them..it’s in my nature..i am a giver..not a taker..

but i’ve reached my limit..when it comes to him..i can no longer play the martyr..i would like to play the role of recipient for a change..

tag..i’m it..my turn to be greedy..and if he doesn’t like it..c’est la vie..

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