December 20, 2002

Twenty-Something

Am I messed up or what? I buy an XBox today and end up sitting in my room playing around with my guitar and came up with a song.

Anyways, ready or not, here it comes.

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TWENTY-SOMETHING

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Don’t know if I’ll ever find the words to say

All the things that I’d love to get out today

Even though I try and try with all my might

I am slowly loosing my desire to fight

Emptiness is all that I have ever known

With so many others and yet so alone

Play the game and look all normal from outside

All the while just looking for a place to hide

How much longer until I can finally rest?

Screw the teacher, screw this stupid messed(?)-up test

Past and present and the future haunting me

Why did I have to be?

Time is said to heal almost everything

The more I’m here the more crap that life has to bring

Never any answers to my many cries

Slowly dying, staring at the empty skies

Why’s it all have to be such a mystery?

What’s so wrong with making answers plain to see?

Sitting all my life holding an empty cup

Twenty-something and I’m ready to give up

How much longer until I can finally rest?

Screw the teacher, screw this stupid messed(?)-up test

Past and present and the future haunting me

Why did I have to be?

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Maybe now I can go play XBox that I got that out of my system.

..yes i recomend you go play the xbox, too much of that mood will bring anyone down. i like the words though, wish i could hear the music…maybe some day.

Those are some great lyrics. I think I would rather be any age than 20-something. Of course, I’ve said that about every age and I always say I’d never go back to any age (except 19-20) so maybe I’ll never be happy.

Sounds like how I feel sometimes. But really it helps to get it out there. And in regards to your note for me, I had said, that he never had sacraficed anything before, and that wasn’t what it was about,-like everyone’s pre-conceived notions. If I hadn’t put it that way, that’s what I meant. He was the only one I met that I fully trusted. Thanks for your note ;o)

P.S.–If you get that game, “Wreckless,” tell me how it is. Also, I hear that, “BMX XXX,” is fun also. And that you can only get the unsensored version on X Box!! Happy Hunting~

Good song, albeit a bit dark. I must agree with the above note-leavers — go cheer up with some xbox. 😀 Hope you have fun.

Pre-Ex-Girlfriend

December 22, 2002

‘s pretty good Jaimie Joel. Kinda depressing tho! But I always told you that you had talent for writing and stuff. anywhose, I’m outtie! much love-