Rant #1

Ok, I have yet to officaially rant here, so here I go…

Is it just me, or does it seem that people tend to be drawn to people who are depressed? Maybe it’s just the Christians or the people with “hearts” that are like that, I don’t know. But recently I have been in quite a few situations where “normal” people found a depressed person and then flocked to them like flies to crap.

What is it with people that makes them think that everyone needs to be happy? If everyone is different, isn’t it possible that some people just aren’t designed to be happy?

What is it with happiness anyways? People bow before the altar of happiness and think that if you aren’t happy that there’s something wrong with you or that you need help. What is wrong with being UNHAPPY about life and other things?

I don’t get it. Granted, I’ve never been in a position to “get it,” but still I don’t understand. Yes, life SEEMS more pleasant when you’re happy, but being happy doesn’t change reality. It doesn’t change world events, it doesn’t change situations, it doesn’t change the future.

I know, I know, this is a rant because I just left a room full of people wanting to “help me” and I’m sick of people trying to help me. I don’t want help. So what if I’m a human fricking defect? So what if I’m not “happy” and don’t know how to be? In fact, I don’t think I even want to be, because I think that people like me can see reality clearer than the “happy people.”

Although reality sucks too.

Wow, this has really been a “happy” day for me. Or something. I think maybe I know how Job felt when he cursed the day he was born.

Oh well, if I “need” help (according to the standards of the rest of humanity), I don’t want it.

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“Fuck it all

Fuck this world

Fuck everything that you stand for

Don’t belong

Don’t exist

Don’t give a shit

Don’t ever judge me.”

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Slipknot