Man That You Fear

I was listening to this tonight and I had to stick it on “repeat” on my CD player. It is a song by Marilyn Manson called Man That You Fear (hence the title). I don’t want to sound too much like one of those people who try to look into a creative work and see all this crap that was never meant to be there, but it almost seems as if this is describing my childhood.

Maybe sometime I’ll do an entry explaining that. Or maybe not. Either way, check it out and maybe you’ll be privy to some secrets about me that I may or may not give out some other time.

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“Ants are in the sugar

The muscles atrophied

We’re on the other side,

The screen is us and we’re TV

Spread me open

Sticking to my pointy ribs

Are all your infants in abortion cribs?

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I was born into this

Everything turns to shit

The boy that you loved is the man that you fear.

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Pray until you’re number

Asleep from all your pain

Your apple has been rotting

Tomorrow’s turned up dead

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I have it all and I have no choice but to

I’ll make everyone pay and you will see

You can kill yourself now

Because you’re dead in my mind

The boy that you loved is the monster you fear.

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Peel off all those eyes and crawl into the dark

You’ve poisoned all your children to camoflage your scars

Pray unto the splinters

Pray unto your fear

Pray your life was just a dream

The cut that never heals

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Pray now baby, pray your life was just a dream…

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(I am so tangled in my sins that I cannot escape)

(I am so tangled in my sins that I cannot escape)

(I am so tangled in my sins that I cannot escape)

(I am so tangled in my sins that I cannot escape)

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Pinch the head off, collapse me like a weed

Someone had to go this far

I was born into this

Everything turns to shit

The boy that you loved is the monster you fear

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Peel off all those eyes and crawl into the dark

You’ve poisoned all your children to camoflage your scars

Pray unto the splinters

Pray unto your fear

Pray your life was just a dream

The cut that never heals

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Pray now baby

Pray your life was just a dream

The world in my hands

There’s no one left to hear you scream

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There’s no one left for you”

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March 14, 2003

In a way that was interesting. I don’t see you like that though. I just see you like Jaimie. Its weird. Do I know the secrets of you childhood?

March 14, 2003

Oh hey, and thanks for all the notes. I dusted some of the cobwebs off my diary and wrote a little entry :o) haha What can I say? I’m terrible…;o(

March 16, 2003

hey hey Jaimie Joel! Ya know…I really dont see you in that at all. MaYbE I have an obstructed vision of you or something, but I dont see you in it. RYN:No, I’m not gonna move out. Cuz I’d miss you to much, and I’d miss my house and stuff. AND I was chatting with Jen, I didnt call her…….we only have one phone line remember? :oP Anywhose, I was hoping you were on! *hugs* luv ya

March 16, 2003

hey hey hey again! I wanted to say something really other than what I said before. Cuz I’m answering notes and read a totally different one I dont think I answered before! RYN:Do you really think I’m that shallow that I’d sit across from a hot guy hoping that the pastor would say hold hands?? LoL ;o)