January 4, 2003

Brother

Ok, I’m still up.

Apparently I’ve been watching the wrong movies (Saving Private Ryan and Blackhawk Down).

My little brother leaves for Army boot camp in July. Granted, we may not resort to fighting in the mid east or in Korea, but if we do the military “experts” are saying it will take a while.

As much as I think it would be nice for the world to be at peace and all that, it isn’t looking like things are going to turn out that way. He want’s to be on a Blackhawk crew.

I can’t help but feeling protective for my little brother, and yet he’s going into something and someplace where I’ll be powerless to watch over him.

Unfortunately because of my past, there is no way that any branch of the military will take me, otherwise I’d join up just to keep an eye on Nate. But there’s nothing I can do.

As harsh as this may sound, I honestly don’t care about any or all of the arabs or koreans, or anyone else for that matter. If it comes to any or all of them and my brother, I say screw ’em all. I just want my brother to be all in one piece.

Maybe I’m just being paranoid. Maybe I’ve just seen too many movies that are more realistic about battle conditions than most people were supposed to see. No matter what, I don’t care.

I know that people have to “serve their country” and all that (although nowdays it’s more like serving the UN, which I think is a bad idea), but it sucks when it hits home. I know I’m nowhere near the first person to think of this, and I doubt I’ll be the last.

I really don’t care about any arabs or any koreans or anyone else. I just don’t want to out live my little brother.

Sorry, no cool song lyrics on this one.

It only natural to care more about your little brother than you do about anyone else. My dad was in Vietnam and said We Were Soldiers was the most realistic movie about Vietnam that he’d ever seen (and he’s seen them all). He had to walk out b/c it was too intense. I’ve never seen the two you’re talking about. I’ve always wanted to see Saving Private Ryan but never have.

Pre-Ex-Girlfriend

January 5, 2003

*hugs* Dont talk about it!! It’s to sad, I’m gonna cry!! emotional train wreck! MaYbE I should join the army and protect him ;O) LoL then we’ll all go together :oD RYN:thanx for all the notes. what’d you say again? I agree, problems suck!! Why do we have them? Anywhose, I’m outta here for now! much love

i have serious issues with the “army” and military in general, there are soo many army brats that live here cuz of fort gordon, so naturally all the friends i made, all my friends had to move away all the time b/c of that. then my best friend joined the navy, and she is getting shipped out soon to the mid-east. all the military does is take your loved ones away, it is very not cool. later-me

ever gonna talk again J? it’s been a while.

I was always protective of my little brother too – he’s a state cop now. It’s scary when the people we grow up sheltering are off on their own facing dangers on a daily basis. You just have to find a way to let go, no matter how hard it is. He’s an adult now too. It sucks – you can kick me for such shitty advice, but there is really nothing more you can do.

January 10, 2003

LoL I came back here to see if someone had left you a not..and I couldnt bring myself to read this entry. It’s so sad…I’m gonna start crying one of these visits. And then you’ll have to deal with me hysterical. That or nate will..either way it wont be pretty. But what am I gonna do? cry and be unhappy prolly :’o( BTW:tell him to email me! haha!! I’m outtie for now!! much love