9/22/07

My diary is a broken record. I’m never happy, i’m always looking for something more. Things are largely the same in my life today as they were in early august when i wrote my last entry. I still haven’t really gotten close with anyone. I’m not anybody’s best friend or even close friend. I’m just a guy people know. Some like me, some don’t, some are indifferent.

I had a fairly deep conversation with my vice president on friday during which I aired some things which were pissing me off which I had previously kept to myself. It was noteworthy because during the entire time I was at my previous company I was never able even once to have a conversation like that with a superior. It really calmed me down to get those things off my chest, and even just talking about them seemed to lessen their significance. Now when I think about it the whole conversation seems a little silly, but there were just a number of things which had me ready to boil over. The thing that reaffirmed my faith in this company was that we were in the middle of a pretty significant business crisis when this happened. He walked by my desk, clearly saw that I was not in a good mood, asked me if I was ok. I said that I was ticked off, and he basically dropped everything to sit in his office and listen to me. That made me feel that maybe I did make the right move in coming here. Maybe things are going to work out. To be perfectly honest I had started thinking about quitting over the past couple of weeks, so the timing of this talk was very important. It’s kinda funny too, because my boss and associate basically hate the guy and think he’s a major asshole. I never really thought like they did, but was starting to waver a little bit.

to be continued….