Gary comeing home.

I know i have not written in a while, i know its sad. Gary is comeing home . He was susposed to come home this monday. But  his doctor forgot to put the discharge order in his folder,he put everything he needed for the discharge in the folder but the order. And since the doctor was super backed  up, he wont come homee till tomorrow, which will be tuesday.

I think i need a break from my hjusband for a few weeks. Is it bad I dont trust him with Mikey.I mean he yells at the baby when he is crying, even if it is a very small low cry. He yells loud at the baby. He gets up set with himn when he dont drink his bottle fast enough for my husband,and when he dont drink fast enough he japs the bottle in and out of his mouth till he drinks, he does this so hard sometimes it chokes the baby sometimes, and he ends up spitting it all up. My husband gets upset and gets an attitudeif i ask him to feed the baby or change his diaper. My husband refuses to go see gary during the week after he gets off work , saying traffic is going to be bad or i just dont want to.My husband got so upset today at the hospital about Gary not come that he was raising his voice at me so loud nurses and other moms at the nicu were looking at us. All i wanted to do was cry. I m afraid with all his yelling and getting upset with the baby that he might hurt him. My husband wont even wake up in the middle of the night to help me feed the baby. I hate to see him when Gary comes home.My mom is susposed to come stay with us for a week after Gary comes home. I think if he does this stuff when my mom is down. I might just go back home with my mom, and let my husband cool down for a few weeks.