Feeling depressed.

Life these days seems to be kicking me in the butt. We have been struggling financially for a long time and it has gotten much worse lately. My next pay check will be nice and enough to cover the bills and have a little left over for gas and such for the next month, but that is all. After that we will be right back at the same finance issues. You see we have been married 8 years as of last month and for the past 4 years I have solely been paying the bills out of my pay check. This is because the hubby gets upset when I ask him to help with the bills. We whines and says things like how he never has the money to fix his truck or buy what he wants. He did help this past month with one bill. Thank goodness. That is only because he got part of his enlistment bonus. Other than that I paid for everything.

He does not help out on a month to month basis and because he doesn’t want to help out with the monthly bills and I have to pay for everything we are homeless and staying with family. Between the two of us we do make enough money to have our own place. Yes it would be tight, but it is doable. But because the hubby thinks that since its his money he should do with it what he wants. Which means he spends it on I have no idea, it is not the bills. If we did not have the kids I would of left years ago. I am very unhappy in this marriage but have no real reason to get a divorce other than I am unhappy. Oh and we don’t have enough money to pay for a lawyer anyways. I feel stuck in more ways than one.