Better

I guess things are better now. Ive kinda accepted the fact my boys might have ttts. it helped going to the web sites and reading all the stories about the twins that did survive. it makes me feel better. Instead of crying uncontroably now, i kjust rub my stomach and tell lil mikey and lil gary that there gonna be just fine, and that mommy and daddy love them no matter what happens.the web sites said to drink 3 protein shakes a day, which i have been and let me tell you, ive actually felt lil gary kick for the first time a few days after starting to take them. lil gary is the small twin and the so called donor twin if they have ttts.lil mikey is the big one and the more active one. but it was good to finally get to feel lil gary kick for the first time and hes done it several times, so hes just lettin mommy know hes still there and not going anywhere just yet.

the web sites also said that to have your cervix checked at evry doc visit. the last one i had  when i was told i might have this they checked it for the first time ever. and the lady said its good its not thin and its right where it should be. alot of the ttts web sites said you would have a thin cervix, which i dont, so im glad. we are still a lil worried about lil gary. ive kown for a few weeks that he actually has a extra half a vertabre in his spine. doc said that they had a baby born last year at gthe hospital who had it and turned out just fine. doc even said many people grow up normally haveing this and not even knowing that thye have it.so i felt good about it. my husband was totally upset when i told hima bout the tts. but he finally calmed down and realised the boys are goona be just fine.that were just gonna have a big baby and a little baby as he puts it. its so cute to hear my husband talking about the boys over the phone. he calls him his lil me’s, he is very excited.