Alwaya and always.

       It has been a long time since i have written. I have been on but only reading and making comments on other diarys. I have just been wanting to keep to my self and figure things out.  It has been a long and hard road these few weeks. I have had time to think about my life and what I want out of it. I have just in general been thinking alot. 

       It has been an roller coaster ride with ron. He is nice and sweet and then mean cruel and violent. Sometimes I wonder if he might be crazy sometimes.  He is really nice sweet and loveing when other people are around. But not so much when it is the two of us. I have been driving down on the weekends so he can see the boys. He is there father and has a right to see his sons.

      On the up note. I have gotten a job with the american red cross in atlanta. I will be working in the lab that proccess the blood that people donate. I like the job. I am still in training right now, so I have not actually done my job for which i was hired. I will be working tuesday through saturday the 3:30 pm to 12:30 am shift. It is the later shift, but I dont really care about that.