The Journey

 

Sunday, August 21st 2022 was the day the decision was made!

Often the biggest decisions you make in your life can affect not just you but your children, your wife, your family, your friends and sometimes your colleagues.

You may find that those that care or support you in these decisions help push you to get to those goals and remind you why you are doing it; be there for you mentally, physically, and for some people spiritually.

For those that don’t want to support you, phase your out or go full l radio silence; that’s fine too, don’t let it change your mind. The ultimate question is simple; is it worth your time?

Recently on a trip away, I let the proverbial hair out, I know I don’t have much hair, but I digress. When I awoke a day and a half later, I had no phone, no wallet, I was in a foreign country (intentionally), but I was lucky I had people with me I love and trust.

Someone found my phone and managed to use it to message the group I was travelling with as they had tried to call and message several times, worried about me.

I found out later that it was in a very dangerous part

of the city in an area where most foreigners don’t get out unscathed; I could have been seriously hurt. Lucky I was born with a coconut head, a knack for taking a beating and dishing one out, but I will never actually know how I got out of that area or how I got back to the hotel. I woke up with the worst hangover of my life and a bang on the back of my head that’s It.

But it was a big part of why I am starting this journey.

You have to start any journey by taking that first step.

Step 1. The step within yourself that takes you to make this decision is admitting to yourself you have a problem. And that’s what I’m doing today.

Step 2 Admit to others you have a problem. When you are ready, but not before. As my minister said this evening when I went to see him, it starts within, and by speaking to him and some other friends today, you have completed the first and second steps.

Step 3. As My Chemical Romance put it

“Will you defeat them?

Your demons and all the non-believers

The plans that they have made?”

“Because one day, I’ll leave you a phantom

To lead you in the summer

To join the black parade.”

When you think you may slip, reach out to the people that have offered you the support, and reach out to those that you know care. This is where I’m personally going to have the biggest issues.

Step 4. Be the black parade, defeat those demons! Stay the course. One step in front of the other and you can do anything!

I know I can do what I need to complete my journey. My wife has already got my back, and several people have offered support.

Here’s to new beginnings! A life without alcohol, a life long enough to be a big part of my children’s lives and a long long time of memories with

my amazing wife, no memory loss because I drank too much, and no disagreements as I went too hard. Just love and life.

For those that read all this, I thank you.; I chose a few very select people to message directly I know you understand and could be here for me long term as I push towards my goal of .00 for life.