Part two? Or a new entry? not sure.

Part two? Or a new entry? no sure. 

*Other readers*

I do not care about your judgments, or maybe I will, but still, here goes.

WARNING OF POSSIBLE EXPLICIT LANGUAGE BELOW!

ONE LAST WARNING, THIS IS NOT FOR THE FAINT-HEARTED!

 

From my last post, last night/earlier this morning.

“I’m going to have a cigarette or two, and come back and try again, maybe ill write maybe I won’t, until then

Thanks for reading….”

 

I did come back, but this time I’m sober….

I woke this morning to a message from the most important woman in my life, my wife.

EDITED/CENSORED

“My love, thank you for telling me. Nothing could ever stop me loving you. You are my Ravek.

Yes, if you had told me you’d spent the night in some girls room because you were drunk, I would be a broken women. Because you are my moon and stars.

But you were drugged. In foreign country,  where not being local puts a big old sign on your back.

I am so RELIEVED you were not hurt, bashed, left in some alley… I can’t even think about the what ifs… bur you are safe, you made it back to the hotel and you’ll be coming home to me. That’d all I care about.

I can’t speak for G and B, but you didn’t go a Casino for fs, they’re probably feeling a lot of things, but glad your ok is probably right up there for them too.

My only question… when? Pride night? Or did you go out drinking with/still shedding virus/ never had covid? Because if that’s the case… I think you might need to talk to me or someone about saying  a big ole NO to drinking for a while… I’m not judging you, if you went on thr turps with covid or still in the early stages of recovering from it you very well could have had a heart attack or stroke or something when they roofied you. 

I love you. You can tell me anything. Please please take care of yourself and come home to me so I can hold you, hug and kiss you xoxo”

She even sent me music!!

This woman is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me, She is right though I do need to address my drinking, and I may have had COVID that night also.

I can believe how unbelievable relieved I feel right this moment, My wife by my side (virtually of course, as we’re currently in different countries), but she is such an amazing woman!

My next entry to this diary or open rambling of me will be done sober!

Until then, Thanks for reading.