Freedom…

I Love my mother in law, I really do and I would do anything for my husband’s family and have but I wish that we could have the house to ourself once in a while. It’s nice when she goes out with friends and even when she would go away for a night or 2 (cause then I get to relax without those dogs) and I haven’t gotten that for a while.  It’s nicer now so I keep all of the dogs outside as long as possible so they are not in the way and I know as soon as she comes home they will run around in the house again… that’s my freedom from them (and I even do that to my own so it’s not like I’m being mean to just them!)

I like to do things on my own and I almost wonder if she get’s bugged by it cause she just wants to help. I’ve been used to doing things my way this entire deployment. I find myself changing things up in the dishwasher so they fit better, and wanting to put groceries away myself. I don’t mind her helping bring them in but I like to arrange things to make them fit, and I’m pretty good at it (not trying to brag on myself about it) and yesterday I told her I would put the frozen stuff away and I said it twice cause I wasn’t sure if she heard me the first time and it almost seemed like she got snippy with me. I’ve been trying to do things right away myself so she doesn’t have to do them. She’s been great at helping out but lately (and I don’t know if it’s cause I get to it first, cause sometimes I don’t) things are getting left a little more. I think she get’s the hint a little that I like to do things myself. It’s what I was used to for 5 months so why would that change now? I’m becoming less dependent on her as far as watching Madison since it can change in an instant. I just hope that she doesn’t get called into work on the days she said she would watch her cause we already arranged that and it would SUPER annoy me cause she can tell her boss no she has to baby-sit cause this has been planned for me to pick these shifts up since the beginning of the month. I should have a backup though just in case, can’t really rely on people. The other thing too was I had to suttlely mention that my bill was high and it was probably due to electric so she’s been better at turning her heater off (well I suppose cause it’s nicer out too now) Otherwise I went downstairs a few times and turned it off myself. She would leave it running 24/7 not kidding, one of those surface heaters)

It’s hard at night not being able to move freely around, like tonight I lost track of time and got my daughter to bed late, and she was moving around a little and my mother in law had gone to bed not long before I noticed what time it was and she told her to stop running/jumping. It’s fine but then I realized I had laundry I had to hang in the office on the drying rack and her room is right under the office so I had to try to tip toe around so she wouldn’t get pissed off again. I have more laundry to do but suppose I’ll have to wait tomorrow till she’s done, since I was doing some today she said she would do her’s tomorrow. Sometimes she doesn’t have much to wash so I feel like it’s a waste. I don’t have a lot left either maybe just 1 more load so I can wait for another time too.  I used to like to workout at night and I can’t really do that, so it makes it hard. Also I was cleaning today and had the music on the t.v. going and knew once she came home that-that would come to an end. I was nice and said she could turn it off so they can watch something but deep down I wanted to listen to music and clean. I gotta get ready for my hubby to come home   

There have been other times too when I was talking to Paul on skype and we would type something personal and she would walk over, and I wouldn’t get a chance to close the window so then I’m afraid she see’s that stuff.

She’s really not a hard person to live with and I like having her around but it’s nice to have freedom too once in a while…

P.S> My latest obsession… Looking up and writing down recipes on the internet and now I found another obsession, I found out my computer has templates that have different checklists I mean ALL SORTS of them and TONS of different templates that come in handy SO much! I love this program 🙂  I made a chore list for our daughter today to start tomorrow and I’m gonna print a checklist for the bucket list of places I want to go, and they have grocery lists and just tons of stuff, so as you can tell I am pretty excited about this right now.